I don't know if its worth it anymore...

2012-01-17T17:43:00.001+08:00

Sorry for not blogging for so long... It's just that I have no mood to blog and nothing much to brag about as well... How's the new year so far? It's been as smooth as I hoped it will be so far... No complains... Yet... Oh yeah... I forgot... Happy New Year!!! I know it's late but better late or never...
The past year was a tad different than the year before... I guess, I was just lucky then... I am looking forward to the new year... More challenges to overcome and I may or may not come out victorious but I will move on... No worries...
My mom asked me one weird question just now... Randomly, she asked, you don't have a boyfriend is it? I was like, no and I have better things to do... Like studying again... She didn't pursue the matter any further... And the other day, she told me, kesian anak aku... Sorang sorang dier... Then I gave her my one-eyebrow-up stare and walked off... What's wrong with her anyway? No worries, Mom... I can take care of myself with or without anyone... I don't mind going about my life myself... Hidup sendiri mati sendiri ji... No problem... All I gotta do is pray so that my life will go as I wants it to be... Insyaallah...
Insyaallah, I will be pursuing my further studies this year.. A degree in mathematics... I've been saving as much as I can but not as much as I wanted to... But I manage to save up some so it's still better than nothing...
All I wanna do right now is to be by myself and enjoy the peace I am having after so long... Its as though I never did have peace until recently and I wanna enjoy it as long as I can... I like being by myself... No fuss, no time wasted, nothing... Nothing at all!!!
Do not make me use criticism so that you will buzz off... I already did that and life was peaceful... I never want to do it again because I know I ain't perfect and never will be... I can't ask nicely either because I am and never nice... So just mind your own business... I don't need anymore nonsense than I am already with dealing right now... All I ever hear will be nonsense and nothing else...
Why did I dream of you? You were suddenly in my dream and I don't know why... I missed you but didn't think of you much until the dream... But nevermind... I will live on... No matter what... Life goes on... Oh wells...
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2011-11-28T00:02:00.001+08:00

Everyday, I struggle to get over you... Everyday, I struggle so that I don't have to be in pain at the thought of never seeing you again... Everyday, my life revolves around you... But you will never have a clue about the things I'm going through right now... The pain I am going through right now is something I thought only others go through but never me... But now, I realize how painful it is... How sucky it is... How I would stoop really low just so that I can see you again... But now, I realized after you said all that, I am never gonna see you again...
I am never gonna smell your perfume again... I am never gonna rest my hands on your back or your baby's tank again... I am never gonna smack your arms again... I am never gonna be able to call you mangkuk again... I am never gonna watch a movie with you again... I am never gonna eat face to face with you again... I am never gonna go out with you again... I am never gonna go to the arcade with you again... I am never gonna grab my thighs against yours while pillioning you again... I was mistaken that you wouldn't treat me the way the other guys did to me... You are the exact same copy... It was a mistake to tell you that I like you... You said you will still treat me the same but now... What's the awkwardness? I never felt awkward... I'm a very straightforward person... I guess, you will never know that now... I kept crying at night and I don't know why... Is it because of you or something else? However, despite all that, thank you for being there when I needed someone... Thank you for sending me home on your bike (thrice) and your car (once)... Thank you for the movie treat and dinner and drinks and arcade treats... And thanks to you, the journey back home will never be the same again... But it's okay... It will all gradually be gone... Finally, thank you for letting me know you better... I've had a wonderful time... I wish you good luck in your future endeavours and if I see you again in future, I know I will never acknowledge you... I'm glad i've known you... Thanks for the memories again, good or bad... I'm letting you go as I did with the others... Because I will always be the one to let people go... Bye!!!
I'm sorry... I'm sorry for crapping to you about nothing else except the problems I am facing right now... And it all concerns boys... I was so lucky to escape boys trouble during primary, secondary and poly days... But I guess, I can't escape it forever aite... Nobody told me it's gonna be this hard... I thought I can handle it but I guess not... My mum did told me to be wary but I didn't listen... How foolish and silly and naive of me to think that all these will never happen to me... Learn from mistakes and move on.. Hello? I am a perfectionist remember? I want to do it once and do it right... I will move on no matter what... Life goes on no matter how painful it will be...
People who know me know nuts about me... People who don't know me know nothing about me... So basically, no one knows me better than me and my mum...
Work sucks, as usual... I am still contemplating as to whether to stay on for move on... But the pay is shiok ah... Wasted if I move on... But seriously, I can't stand it anymore... The people, the workload, the environment and the management... I wonder if things will get better or get worse in future...
I have no one to turn to for help anymore... Help with boys, help with my life, help with my work, help with my mental sickness and help with the evil within me...Yeah, I am sick... Mentally... I toy with people, I manipulate them, I push them to their limits, I am never serious, I always have the tendency to be mean to people even though i appear very nice and kind, I am always angry even though I put on a happy smile, I inflict pain on myself then I will feel better, I keep quiet about a lot of things so that others don't have to worry about me and people don't surprise me anymore... I am sick, mentally... I need help but I think, I should be able to hold it... Until one fine day when you see me with bruised fingers...

2011-10-27T19:42:00.001+08:00

I don't want tears down my cheeks anymore... Or even tears welling up in my eyes... Everytime I think about you, tears just starts to cloud my eyes... I don't want any of these anymore... Nobody told me all these is gonna be this painful... Nobody warned me... All these must always come with warning signs... Hugeass warning signs that says, BE VERY CAREFUL WHEN YOU ENTER!!!! Damn it all!!! I just wish that somebody will stab me through the heart with an army knife...
I don't wish to see you anymore... Maybe after everything has settled and stabilized... I will never know how long I will take to recover but I will... Gradually... It will always take time... I guess, in the meantime... I will have to suffer in silence then... I shall pretend that I'm okay, pretend that nothing is happening, pretend that everything is fine and that I am moving on... I will put a smile on my face no matter what... Even if tears starts welling up, I will smile...
I don't know why I never told you straight in the face... I did that twice before but somehow, something just stopped me from saying what I wanted to say... And I regretted it... Luckily, I have your number... I don't know what I might have done if I didn't...
I've known you for 1 year plus already but I didn't actually know you until this year... I wonder why... I guess, one night shift made a lot of difference... Maybe life is playing this trick on me... Just to see if I can endure this... Nevermind... I will get through this no matter what... It's painful and heart-wrenching and irritating an annoying but I will and shall do this...
I just want you to know that I get jealous whenever I heard or saw you talk to other girls... I know... Why should I be jealous when you are not even mine to start with kan... So what is wrong with me... I don't want to feel this way but I can't help it... I hate not being able to control my feelings... I hate it whenever I can't control anything...
Whatever I do, wherever I go, whenever the time is, all that's on my mind is you... I am going crazy... Maybe it's just a crush... It will pass... Hopefully... Insyaallah... But I don't know why this time, it hurts... Real bad... When I'm awake, you are on my mind constantly... When I'm about to fall asleep, you are on my mind again... When I open my eyes, you are on my mind again... When I'm in the shower, you again... When I watch tv, you again... Lucky not in my dreams... If not, I seriously don't know what else to say... Sometimes when I eat also, you again... I'm doing my best to hide it all... The pain and suffering so that others will never know... But it's okay... Because I know I can and will get through all these no matter what... That's how I console myself through the years, through all those hard times that people will never know of... I know I will only get stronger...
In the meantime, pelan pelan kayuh eh...
Those memories of you sending me home is still etched and fresh in my mind... But I know that every bit of the memories will slowly fade away no matter what... The routes that we took... What we did... How I felt the first time you sent me home... How my whole body ached... How you smell... How I love putting my hand on your back and poking you with my elbow with my hands on the tank and smacking you whenever you are being a mangkuk... How you listened to my nonsense and rantings and bitchyness... Thank you for saying that we will be good friends no matter what... But right now, I can't see you as a good friend... I have to stay away from you for some time, I don't know how long though, so that these feelings will go away... So that I can keep calling you mangkuk without ever blushing... So that I wont get jealous whenever I see or hear you talk to other girls... So that I am me whenever I see you or hear others talk about you...
So I guess right now, I have to be distant to you... I will be tempted to SMS or whatsapp you but I will do my best not to do that... I can and will do this... Pelan pelan kayuh kay...

2011-10-18T14:23:00.002+08:00

Its been sometime since i last blogged on my lappie... I've been doing that on my BlackBerry ever since, well, i got my Black Berry... And since i am free, i shall blog on you with my lappie... And sorry lappie... For not paying enough attention on you...

With everything that had happened, i realised that i have been lying... To myself all along... I thought that i can get over what had happened but i just can't... So i wonder what's gonna happen to me... Will i go crazy anytime soon? That is yet to happen but it might soon...

I'm sorry but i don't want to care anymore... Because i need time... I just need time to myself, to make sure that i am okay enough to be back to normal... I don't know when i will be back to normal but i know that once i feel better, i will treat you people better... But i guess, most people don't realise that... They just assume i just went berserk... Nah, i should just keep my mouth shut and not say anything...

2011-09-09T10:54:00.000+08:00

I guess that if people can't accept my foul-mouthed and annoying attitude, they are all welcome to get lost from my face and even better, disappear from my life... Wait, I think I am already doing that...

Memfitnah lagi besar dosanya dari membunuh, tau tak? Biar paham, jangan macam paham... Bodoh siol!!!! Sedarlah tu diri sikit, tak payah banyak banyak... Muka dah pecah perangai ubah... Manusia manusia... Macam macam lah...

I dreamt of you 3 times eh... I wonder what the hell is wrong with me... I know I keep disturbing you and all but why are you always on my mind... Am I going crazy or is it just because its a psychology thingy... 3 times!!! 3 times I went out with you and pillion your bike... I'm kinda glad that we are just friends...I'm glad you make it clear... I was just testing jer... Test water dulu eh... I know I can be nonsensical at times so I am glad you never entertain it... And I'm glad that you are always there to listen to my bitchiness... But why do you keep saying yes whenever I asked you out? I wished that you just say no so that I would never be in this position, all confused and complicated... But its okay... I guess, I just keep it all in and be myself... And I should stop reading in between the lines too much... Just let time tell... Slowly and slowly... Pelan pelan kayuh ah eh... Anyways, thank you for being my friend... Even listening to motorbikes passing by reminds me of you... The kuehs you give me, is a sturdy reminder of you... Damn lah!!! CRAZEE!!!! But nevermind... I am so gonna take things easy... I am grateful to you once again... My life started going downhill after htbc... I was still me when I got back but then... Something happened and everything spiralled down... I thought everything will go back to normal but no... It just got worst... Stop being nice to me lah... And stop going with my nonsensical requests... Just say no and keep saying no... I will not bother you if you just keep saying no... Please... But then again, I like to disturb people... Well, especially if you are single... Muahahahaha...

I don't know if its worth it anymore... Everytime I said I am giving up, somebody else comes along and gives me back the hope... Why is it always like that? I don't put hopes on people anymore... They are disappointing everytime... A big hugeass disappointment... I want to live my life the way it was before... Where the only complications I knew was how to get my grades higher or how to earn more money without without having to overtime or how to get a degree without having to quit my present job... Times change, I change... I wish changes never occur but I guess that's call life... Life is constantly changing... I am adapting to the changes of life but really damn slow lor... But I adapt to changes at work pretty damn fast... Surprising... If I can't get what I want, its okay... Because I will always have what I need...

Somehow as memories fade away, the pain seems to increase...

Everynight, as she lay on her bed at night, thinking about everything that had happened and might happen, her surroundings seems to blur and her pillow gets wet... As she toss and turn, she slowly drifts off to sleep and into lala land... Hoping that she will get peace in lala land is even too much to ask...

I feel that the love of my life is so near yet so far... Aku nie pun berbual macam paham jugak... Muahahahaha...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2011-08-02T11:57:00.001+08:00

Hi... Sorry for not writing for over a month or so... I did write but it sorta got deleted off... I know, more and more excuses right? I am telling the truth... I don't lie my ass off, okay? Sheesh... The fasting month is here... And since I am always hungry everywhere, I got used to it pretty quickly... This will be the 3rd time I am fasting and celebrating Hari Raya with my current job... Everytime I am at work, I seriously feel like quitting the job... But everytime I tell myself that if I can get through this, I can get through anything... And then there's the fantabulous colleagues at work... They all make my life there so much fun... How could I leave all that... The management will forever suck so that I can't do much about it... I know that if I leave, I am so gonna miss that crappy place and the fantabulous colleagues... So insyaallah, I am gonna stay there...

Now I know why I never had much complicated problems back when I was in secondary school or poly days... I was so lucky back then... I can't be so lucky forever, can I? I wanna go back to the days where all these are practically non-existence... I think, I am reading too much between the lines... Time to chill and let things flow and go with the flow... Let time tell what is gonna happen and take it as it comes... Sometimes, I feel I could just drop everything and walk away... But I couldn't do it... Because I don't leave things hanging... But somehow this time, I can just leave it... Because its all not my decision to make... As for me, my feelings will be kept suppressed no matter even though I am tempted to make it known... Rejections seem to be part of my life... I am not fickle... I just want to have a connection or at the very least, a slight attraction... That's it... Is that too much to ask for? I guess it does since I've never had a boyfie... And now, I'm giving up... I give up... I guess, its just not worth it anymore... Now, I know its not worth it anymore... Like finally...

I feel cold and lost in desperation... I build up hope but failure's all I know... Remember all the sadness and frustrations... And let it go... Let it go...
I am swimming the smoke... Of bridges I have burnt... So don't apologise... I am losing what I don't deserve...

Sometimes, I wonder what is wrong with me... But I don't see anything wrong with me... I like to be myself... I am never fake... I am at peace with myself but not with what I am feeling... But as I have said before, if people don't accept me the way I am, they are better off never existing in my life... I'd rathe be comfortable with everyone around me than always awkward... Well, being friends is a much better options then...

That will be my first and last ride... Yeah, I was a virgin on a motorbike but not anymore... It was an eye-opening experience... Scary initially but thrilling subsequently... What an adrenaline rush... And the bike wasn't small... It is a sports bike, I guess... Surprisingly, I thought the ride wwould be a cold one but it wasn't... My mum would so kill me if she knew I was sent home on a bike... However I don't know if I liked the ride or the bike or both... The rider is my colleague lahh... I knew I was pale initially but I think I had a smile on my face subsequently... My knee was aching when I got off the bike... I couldn't sleep that night though and I didn't know why... However, my whole body was aching the day after... I was like, bloody hell??? Was it the after effects of riding such a big bike? I know, I very the kental kan... It was like once in a lifetime kinda experience...

We will always be friends first and foremost... Whatever happens after that, will never matter... Because I know that time will tell a lot... No matter what...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2011-06-14T11:27:00.000+08:00

Seriously, I feel like crap... I have been feeling this way for the past few days and I still don't know why... Its shitty because I don't know why I feel crappy... If only I know what's making me feel crappy, I would have done something about it... But no... I still don't know why I feel crappy... Haiz~~~
I so can't wait for him to go off... I know its very mean of me but I couldn't help it... I'm not halau-ing you back but its just that, life was so much easier when you never existed... I was happier being myself, wondering around by myself and going crazy by myself... I seemed to have change when I met you... Everything turned tppsy-turvy after you... It got complicated... I am not blaming you though... I blamed myself for getting myself into this mess... I blamed myself for everything that have happened... I knew I should have gotten myself out before it got worst... But my refusal to believe that I couldn't handle it got the better of me... And now, I shall suffer... For the mistakes I made... And nope, you are not a mistake and I am not regretting meeting you... You are like a breath of fresh air that I wanted, not needed... I don't want to have regrets... Never because life must never be full of regrets... A few also shouldn't have...
I am so confused right now... Maybe that's why I feel crappy... I am confused over what's right and what's wrong... Well, technically... I have been exposed to a lot of shitty things that I know its wrong but still people do it... Sometimes, I do it but its for a good purpose... So that means, you must do wrong in order for the right thing to happen... What the hell???? I should be old enough to know but still, I feel like a small kid... Lost in the world where it contradicts itself... So how? No one can guide me that way... Everyone else will say a different thing... So how??? I've been restless for the past few days and my sleep got affected... And I hate it when my sleep is affected and I can't function properly... And I am usually the kind who will still sleeps like a log even though something happened or even if a nuclear bomb explodes beside me... Seems like nothing can cure my crappy-ness... I wonder when will this ends... Or maybe, I just need more sleep... I don't know... Like, seriously...
Seriously, I never thought that I might feel this complicated...
Lu lembab ah lu... Kalau gini, biler mau game... Dah ah... Buang maser aku jerr... Aku tak nak ah... Terperanjat siol aku... Tak pernah aku dengar orang berbual gitu... Memang perangai gitu atau ader yang tak kene... Tapi aku tak rase gitu... Memang kau gitu ah... Kesian nyerr... Takper lah eh... Ambik jer seberape mase kau nak, aku tak nak layan... Lantak kau lah eh... Aku tak nak layan kau lagik lahh... Penat lahh... Aku nak layan diri aku sendiri pun penat tau... Nak layankan kerenah kau, ter lungkup siol aku... Tonggang terbalik siol... Dunier akan terbalik kalau terjadi aper yang disangkakan... Mampos aku... Muker terus jadi hitam, hijau, merah... Tapi bukan pink eh... Maaf yerr, kalau terperanjat... Aku ingatkan aku masih tengah tido tetapikan, habes... Dah terkeluar pun... Kesian kau... Terperanjat tak semene mene... Jangan sakit jantung sudah eh... Kekek siol... Entah lah eh... Aku pun tak tahu aper yang kat dalam kepaler otak kau tu... Aku macam nak ketuk ketuk ajer... Aku nak balik ah... Boleh? Tak susah kan? Agaknyer... Aku pun tak tahu... Then macam maner sekarang...
I wanna protect you from all the evils of life lah sehh... You are so innocent that ic ouldnt imagine you being part of this evil world... I wish I can protect you from all of it with my life... But I guess not... Maybe I am not the one to protect you... Maybe we are just not meant to be... I want to hold onto you all my life but I guess not... I will and shall let you go wholeheartedly... I am not gonna hold you back... Maybe because you are better off there, with your family and closest friends... If you are happy, I am happy... That's all I want from you... I don't need anything else... I know you are old enough to make decisions by yourself... However slow that might be... You know you will always be welcome back here no matter what... But I know I'm not waiting for you... I shall move on with my life... No matter how hard it is, I will move one... I will gladly welcome you back with open arms if you decided to be with me... But I am not hoping that you will come back for me... Its your life, your decision to make... I will still be here no matter what... However, never regret the decisions that you have made... Because I don't want you to regret any of it... Because I am not regretting any decisions I have made so far... Well, not yet... No matter what I write here, its never gonna reach you... However, bits and pieces might...
Thank you for making my life the way it is right now... I don't know what the future holds, only time will tell... I had a wonderful time with you... I always had no matter how short... I hoped you had a wonderful time as well... And sorry for no noticing you earlier... If not, I would have gone out with you the first weekend that we book out during htbc... But I guess, it didn't happen the way we wanted... But its okay... Maybe things will turn out better than we expected... You and I definitely need time... We both are still trying to adapt to life and enjoying every moment of it...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2011-05-09T15:37:00.000+08:00

You are the first guy to give me a watch as a birthday present... But I don't think its a birthday present... I think its more as a gift... I don't need gifts lahh... I don't even need anything... Its already more than enough that you keep treating me dinner and lunch... Chocolates! Why you bother buying me those as well? I should be paying you for all that lah sehh... I'm sorry but I can never accept anything else because I'm not suppose to... I don't want people to think that I can be bought with money... Because I'm priceless and that I can never be bought with money and riches... You are already treating me more than a friend even though you said that we are just friends... I know a lot of things about you even though I may pretend I don't know... I maybe clueless about certain things but most of the time, I know... I just know... I like your gift very much... Its what I needed... But I can never accept it... I feel real guilty for not being able to accept it... Thank you very much once again... I wanted to cry when you gave those to me... I didn't know what to do... I didn't expect you to give it all to me... Dah lah aku tengah ngantuk, then you gave me a shock by giving everything to me... Alamak, you... Why you have to be like that? Can don't do that to me anymore? My mum will kick such a big fuss lah sehh... I know I am so not ready for all these... I am not prepared mentally... I stil perangai budak budak lah sehh... I still want to be crazy... I want to remain me... I don't want to change yet... I still have a long way to go... Oh, and I will always know if you are lying or not even though I might not show it... The way you kept quiet when you are asked, the way you show your facial expressions and the way you talk as well... You are very protective of me and I really am honoured to be with you... I feel so safe with you around... And its fun to be with you... My mum expect you to send me home, right to the doorstep tau... But I don't mind since I know your current situation... She probably thinks how ungentlemanly you are for not sending me home... Hopefully, when you get back, you will forget all about me and move on with your life over there and pretend that all these never happen... I am never prepared for all these because I'm not used to it... I really pray hard that you are not falling for me because it will get messy... Very damn messy... But I think you are... Because its damn obvious...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2011-05-02T16:04:00.000+08:00

The fact that you said all that, the more I can't let you go when the time comes... I know that when you leave, I will still be able to go on with my life and pretend that nothing has happened... I'm sorry if I'm being very indifferent but I think, I'm keeping myself safe so that I won't be broken that easily... I don't want to have a heartbreak because I know how painful it is to be heartbroken... I am still wondering what in the world you see in me that other girls don't have... It is unexplainable, I know but what is it that makes you like me... I don't see anything special in me... I'm just an average girl, going about my business and without a care in the world... I'm actually happier just being by myself, doing things by myself and happily living my life by myself... You tugged my heart strings a bit but I keep telling myself that you are going off soon and that life will proceed on as per normal without you... I also know that once you go back, you will forget about me and just continue on with your life as though nothing has happen... You and I live in 2 different worlds... We can never make it together... Even if we do work out, where are we gonna stay? I can't leave here... My parents will miss me so much and I've been living here for like, forever and I can't just pack up and go live with you... And you, can't do that for me either... You'll miss your mum as well... I know how close you are to your mum... Me too... Lagik best, I'm the only girl in my family and they can never be too far away from me either... I know that I'm already in deep shit when you said that... I don't want you to fall for me... Because I'm not ready for that... I want to live life as much as I can before settling down... Wherever I go, whatever I do, the time when you are leaving will always be at the back of my mind... I know this is silly but I wish I have met you sooner so that we can spend more time together... But I guess, if its never meant to be, we will never work out no matter what... I like holding your hand, I like to lie beside you and smell your perfume... I like eating opposite you... I like to put my arms into yours... I've always wanted to do all that with a guy... You are a decent guy and I think you will be able to find a decent girl back there, no problem... Or just get back together with your gf... I'm sure you two will be able to work something out... I just wanna tell you this... When you go back, work out a compromise between you and your gf... If it still do not work out, stay there for a while and see if you can find any decent girls there that you fancy and grab her... Just forget about me when you get back... I know it will be impossible at first but you will get over me damn fast that you will not even remember I existed... It will be a fantastic month or so but time will pass... Everything will pass eventually... The only reason I go out with you is because you don't hang out with a lot of singaporeans and you don't have much singaporean friends... If you happen to read this, I don't lie my ass off... I'm speaking right from the bottom of my heart... I know my heart might change after I write this and fall for you real bad but only time will tell... I will always pray that you will be blessed and happy when you get back... I will be thinking of those memories that we have made together and be in my mind forever... But I know that eventually, those memories will fade away as well... There are histories in my life that people don't know about and I don't talk about it because who wants to know, right? I know most guys don't like it when we girls talk about other guys that we went out with before... But I don't mind when guys talk about their exes and all because it gives me an insight to what their life is like before me...
So on the whole, you and I will enjoy the time while it lasts but when you do get back, work things our with your gf or find someone decent and forget about me...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2011-04-22T11:53:00.000+08:00

How I've missed you!!!! Long time no see!!!! How's work so far? Its quite fun actually... Since I hardly do much... Yeah, basically, makan gaji... Hahahahahaha... Baik ke perr kejer aku... Makan tido nyerr kejer... Macam maner tak gemuk sehh... Muahahahahaha...

So anyways... Life has been great so far... So everything has been great... There might have been a few hiccups here and there but I'll get through it no matter what... Because I'm very the strong and very the strong... Hahahahahaha... Don't macam paham here... Hehehehehehe...

How bout my love life then? Nothing's so far... No change... But that's okay... I don't mind... I like it the way it is right now... Its free and easy and easy... Hahahhahahaa... you get my point... I'm taking my time right now... Slowly and carefree-ly and taking my time...

Hahahhahahahaa... I got the numbers!!!! Woohoo!!! Aku giler!!! Muahahahaha... I am evil... Baik ah...

I seriously hate performing in public!!!! AAAARGGGHHH!!!!
Shit! I totally forgot everything that had happened at work! Oops! Something in FB ah that reminds me of work! Bloody FB!!!! Mangkuk betul! Damn it! Now I seriously feel like shit... Confused and I've lost my appetite already but now, my appetite is getting worse... Terus hilang appetite aku nak makan...

Great! Just freaking great! What I want I didn't get, but instead, something else popped up! What the hell? Bloody mangkuk lah! Damn it!

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2011-03-24T10:20:00.000+08:00

Hello! Sorry that I haven't been active lately... Its just that life has been sucky lately and that I couldn't be bothered to write... I feel like crap though... Shitty things will always happen so I just stop complaining altogether... I'm on my way home though... Super tired... Why do they have to disturb my off day? Bloody hell! Cannot see people free and easy is it? Damn it lahh...

I'm already tired of my current job. Its the same old thing every single day... Not $uch of a challenge... I love challenging stuff... I want to challenge myself and to test myself on how far how I can go... Never underestimate others and never over-estimate yourself... Know your limits and then you can dream all you want...

Okay, continuing from yesterday... Hehehehehe... I know... I forgot all about you... Sorry sorry... I'm now suppose to start killing people already so what am I waiting for also don't know... Well, I guess all the other mangkuks as well... Now I have to see them again... Kat kejer macam tak cukup nak tengok nie mangkuk mangkuk nie sumer... Naik jelak aku ji... Boring... Boring... BORING!!!

Haiz~~~ When will I ever get a new job... I'm sick of seeing all these mangkuks every single day and time and and and... Yeah, if you get what I mean... Man, and I got a C grade for the job eh... Even more boring... Mendak ji... Mendak... So, basically, I'm sick of my job and the people... So what the hell... What the hell!!! WHAT THE HELL!!!

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2011-02-02T20:48:00.000+08:00

Its been exactly a month since I last posted... How's life so far? Pretty good, I guess... It will never be boring in my life... I am toying with the idea of quitting my present job and getting an office job... I have to get a degree no matter what... Collecting enough money and finding a new job with my current pay... Haiz~~~ Have to wait for sometime till the right time... When the time comes, I'll do it...

When my birthday comes, I'll deactivate my facebook and take leave... Muahahaha... For one day jerr... After that, I'll be back to normal... Then after that, when I leave my current job, I'll delete everyone who is connected to my current job... Muahahahahaha...

Everyone is entitled to their own thoughts and opinion... The internet is free and open to all... Jangan teraser jer lahh unless you really know its you... If that happens, cakap ngan dorang boleh blah... Tak puas boleh berbual... Boleh berambus yerr...

Okay, I seriously don't know what else to say... I'll blog again when I'm free or just feel like it... I'll see ya when I see ya...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2011-01-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

Hello, my lovelies! Heee... The new year is finally here... Yeah, I don't know whether I'm dreading the new year or excited about it... Oh wells... The new year has been pretty smooth so far... Well, its only been two days and quite smooth actually... No hiccups... I'm glad... Heee... Hopefully, the rest of the year will be as smooth...

I'm currently watching Marry me, Mary! on KBS World... And its fun to watch lahh... Jang Geun Suk is so cute lahh... Oh wait, all 3 lead actors and actress are very the cute lahh... Heeee... I loike!!! Oh oh!!! And I watched the KBS song awards and I got to see all my lovelies on one stage!!! SuJu and 2PM and 2AM and SHINee and and and... Okay, that's all I can remember... Heeee... And and, Junsu and Changmin performed together lahh sehh... So hot and cute lahh!!! OMG!!!! Hehehehehe... Aku officially giler!!! Whoops! Hahahahaha... Changmin! Saranghae! Will you marry me? Hahahahaha... Okay, my mum would so disapprove... I so can't wait to see Super Junior live in concert lahh! On the 30th... So excited!!! And I'm going with Mel, my batchmate! Hehehehehe... We shall party at the concert!!! Woohoo!!! I bought 2AM and 2PM albums... Heee... Oh oh, and also 2 koreans dramas which I have yet to finish watching... No time with my sucky work schedule and I also hardly meet up my two poly mates... Missed them... And sempat you post on their FB wall... Heee...

If people can't take my criticisms then they are not fit to know or even face me... I'd rather be by myself than with those who thinks they are never in the wrong... Bleaurgh... Wake up, people! We are all never perfect! Open your eyes big big, for goodness sake! You must accept those criticisms whether you like it or not, whether its constructive or not, whether it makes sense or not... If you can never take criticisms then you can never improve yourself... How to be a better human... I know its easier said than done but if you are in the right, people will then have nothing to criticize against you... Correct or not? Haish... People people... As for me, people are welcome to criticise me if I did something that needs it... I don't mind because I know I will do something about it and be a better person... Well, as my mum said, macam macam orang kat dalam dunia nie... It will get worse later as I go on later in life... You will be a moron to believe an idiot...

Haiz~~~ It was great while it lasts... But now all that's left are memories... Memories which I somethimes wish never existed... Yeah, well... Someday, those memories will just fade away with time...

Oh yeah... I'm suppose to be working right now but instead, I'm blogging... Whoops! Hahahahaha... Makan gaji bute... Sedap perr kejer... As my mum said before, working in my line, makan gaji... Hehehehehe... Lepak giler... I'm counting my blessing every single day... Lucky me... With the pay I'm getting now, I can even afford to go on holiday and pay for everything using my own money... Am I cool or what? Hehehehe... Yeah well, those are the perks... But, I have to resist the temptation of doing that... I'm saving money to study again... So that I can get better job and better pay... Insyaallah... Still deciding what degree to take though... And which school to go to... And how much a degree costs... Taking my time to do research...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-12-22T11:25:00.000+08:00

Hi!!! Its gonna be the end of the year soon... And I'm still here, barely surviving though... But I will... And I shall...

I still love my job... I really do... But under present circumstances, I think I'm better off away from there... I hope that I will stay there long enough to save enough money so I can study again... Insyaallah... When shit happens, I want to stand on my own... I don't want to depend on others to get up on my feet again... Hidup sendiri, mati sendiri kan... Haiz... Sad but its a fact of life... Its okay... I'm better off this way though... Actually, I love it this way... Its called, FREEDOM... Heee... And I'm loving every second of it...

I'm in love... Heeeee... Changmin and Junsu... Heeee... I even have their pics on my phones and almost everywhere... Okay, I love Changmin more... Can I have Changmin for christmas then? Heeee... Fat hope... Hahahahaha... My mum would so disapprove lahh... Oh come on... Who can resist a fair, selenger, sepet-eyed, fantastic body, fantastic voice guy? Heeee... CHANGMIN!!!!! Heeeee... Oh oh... And I got to see them live and up close... They looked like you and me except that they have better fashion sense and they are up on a stage... Its like a dream come true... Worth all those waiting time...

Okay, this might be the last post of the year... So I think I'd better wrap it up then...

So, how's the year have been? It been pretty smooth except for a few hiccups but its pretty smooth on the whole... Start off the year with a bang and ended it with a bang as well... Hmmm... Mistake at work, got blocked on FB-twice!, got braces, more money, shit at work, K-pop concerts, confession, new friends, old friends, new job experiences, outing experiences, festives experiences, hell experiences, pleasant experiences and so much more... I feel as though I have 'aged' a lifetime... Well, there's plenty more from where that came from though... Still young and the world is so big... I shouldn't' restrict myself to the comforts of home... Anyways, goodbye to 2010 and hello 2011!!!! I wonder what kind of experiences the new year will bring me... Insyaallah it shall be another fantabulous year...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-11-23T21:54:00.000+08:00

Hullo, me dearest... I am now blogging at marina square, starbucks... I'm on leave today so I should be spending it at home, sleeping the day away... But I just needed this time by myself so I decided to go retail therapy by myself... And boy did I enjoy myself... I love it very the much... Walking around alone, eating alone and just be by myself... I guess, I just needs me-time... Am having peppermint mocha frapp... Sedap sehh... With whipped cream on top... Damn, I was suppose to make a facial appointment tomorrow but I forgot... Shit... My face is dirty that's why pimples are popping up and my skin is getting drier... Haiz~~~

Oh oh... Did I tell you? I got blocked on FB... Again... Yup, twice... Sucks really... And both are guys... Aper sehh... Perangai budak budak siol... Tapi aper nak buatkan... Dorang nyerr account... They can do as they deem fit perr... One thinks I'm obsessed with him and the other one did so becaue I didn't reply his smses... Entahlah... Aku tak tahu ah... As my mum once said, guys with their egos and stupidity, its very easy to manipulate them... And that's also why I'm in this situation right now...

Tried finding sandals to wear to work but nothing has taken me fancy... Instead, bought eye product and hair products and face products... I burnt close to 200 bucks today... Fuhyoo!!! And now, left with 79 bucks in the bank... Should be enough... Insyaallah...

I think I'm getting sick of this job... Maybe, I just needed a breath of fresh air... I dah penat ah... Melayankan nonsense of this job and the people... I'm struggling to get through it day by day... But its also something I look forward to everyday as well... The memories of it will be with me forever... The first time fasting and breaking fast and celebrating hari raya and sahur-ing... But I know that if its time to move on, I will move on...

I don't have any crushes at the present... I'm just happy with what I have right now... Just happy to be bouncing around, talking to anyone and everyone happily... Back to being me... I so love being me...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-10-25T15:22:00.000+08:00

Peh boring... Dah lamer jugak eh, aku tak blog... So anyways kan... I missed you!!! Hehehehe... Okay okay, aku mepek... Hahahaha... How's work? Its great... It will always be great... Oh oh... And I've been block on FB... Again... Twice... And both are guys... Bloody hell... Oh well... Its their FB account, not mine... So they have every right to do whatever they please with it... Haiz~~~ Hopefully, in future, I won't be the one doing the blocking... I don't block people but people block me... I only delete people but never block...

Its gonna be the end of the year soon... Two more months and goodbye 2010 and hello 2011... I am hoping that by next year, I want to have more money so that I can get a degree... My mum told me to quit this job and become a teacher, as in join NIE... I was like, ermm... I don't know... I know the prospects of being a teacher is very good but I lost the interest of becoming a teacher already... I want to become a doctor... Aneurosurgeon or a cardiothoracic surgeon... Insyaallah...

I'm back to being my normal self... The me before all those shits happens... I'm really am glad that I'm back... Hehehehe... I love being me!!! Woohoo!!!

Oh oh... I went for the K-pop night concert and it was fantabulous lahh!!! Its better than going clubbing... I burnt off much of my fats just by jumping up and down and dancing and shaking my butt... Hehehehe... Worth my 258 bucks even though the seat is far from the stage... I even recorded them... Well, only SHINee and Big Bang and SNSD and ZEA and INFINITE... I didn't record FT ISLAND and I am regretting it... I seriously feel like throwing my dear dear BB to the wall... But I will and am so gonna regret it so I'm doing my best not to do it...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-10-06T14:23:00.000+08:00

Dah lamer siol aku tak blog... Maklumlah, sibuk ngan hal ehwal rumahtangga katerkan... Hahahaha... Stop it sehh... Raye pun dah nak habes... First time in my life to jalan raye with my colleagues and naik kereta pulak tu... Skali turun 5 kereta dokk... Yang turun cumer 15 orang... Baik ke perr... Kereta kosong sehh... Haiz... Thanks to Yanto for driving me and Muliaty around... Our very own Abang Sedap or Daddy Chicky... Hahahhahahahaa... It was fun... We started at around 12... Plan nak jumper kul 1030 kat umah Shahrul in the end 1130 baru sampai... Ish... Janji melayu betul... I reached home at 12 on the dot... Yanto sent me and Muliaty home after picking up his tunang at the bus stop... Last house rumah dier so it was quite convenient... Nasib baik Yanto sent me home... Kalau tak, terkopak duit aku nak naik taxi balik...

A lot of things happened this week... Things that I never knew that could happen to me... Haish... And all of it concerns guys... So basically, guy problems... Yup, first time I am complaining about guys... Its not everyday you read about me complaining about guys... Well, you are lucky today... I had a physical interaction with one guy, another guy called and sms me and called me 'dear', I told another guy that I have a crush on him, I had a teeny-tiny crush on another guy but that's the least of my problems and another guy offered to send me home on his bike... Great, just great... I do not deserve these kinds of attention because I don't consider myself a pretty girl... I consider myself a presentable person... I changed because I want to feel good about myself, not about attracting attentions... Haish...

Work was fun... I love my work... Sayang kalau nak berhenti because the colleagues are fantastic... They are so fun to be around with no matter what... I want to study some more but this job is a tad difficult to study part-time... My dream of getting at least a degree is slightly out of reach but I will make it... It will be a matter of time...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-09-20T20:23:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!! Dah habes puaser pun... Nak kat habes raye jugak... Haiz... Sungguh cepat maser berlalu... Next week aku berjalan raye for the first time ever since I started working... Yeah, with my colleagues... Kinda excited since we'll be all taking cars instead of public transport... First time dokk... Mestilah excited... Oh oh... And I bought my baju kurung and handbag and shoes using my own money... Hehehehehe...

He relieved me during 2nd night... I was on 2nd break... I said, Selamat Hari Raye... He replied, Selamat Hari Raye... And I continued... Maaf zahir dan batin... Kalau ader salah silap maaf yer... He didn't say anything after that... My feelings after that? Nothing... Its as though nothing ever happened... I have done what I can to salvage the friendship and now I hope that things will be back to where it was before... Whenever I see him nowadays, I feel disgust creeping within me slowly... I feel like smacking him on the head or kicking his butt whenever I see him... But nevermind... Only time will tell what is gonna happen... I'm just gonna sit back and enjoy the ride... Hehehehheehe...

I love staring at him whenever he's near... Nowadays, our deployment is always the same... I don't want him to think that I'm obsessed with him pulak... Damn... DAMN LAHH!!! Hopefully, he doesn't think that way... I like looking at his hair, how he reacts to things that are happening around him, the way he walks and so on so forth... I don't know why though but he seems to fascinate me in ways no one else has before... He is similar to me in a lot of ways but there are some things that just makes me wonder about him...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My loves...

2010-08-28T21:30:00.001+08:00

I see him more like a brother rather than a friend... But I like to spend time with him, stare at him and see how he reacts to my different questions... However, when I rethink about him and everything that happened about or with him, I would smile really broadly... We are similar in a lot of ways... We love looking at hot guys/gals... We are both aries thus share almost similar personalities... But when I look at him and the way he behaves, there are somethings that I still can't get it... I don't know what is it and I'm still trying to figure it out...

I got over him... I don't blush around him anymore... I don't even think about him anymore... I don't get nervous around him anymore... However I still have unfinished business with him... Malam raye, I have to ask for his forgiveness even though I think I didn't do anything wrong to him... Its better this way because it might never get resolved if I didn't do something... His refusal to even look at me when I talked to him means he must really hate me to the core... I am deeply saddened by this fact... And somehow, I still can't figure out what kind of person he is... Is he really the person I am seeing right now? Or is he someone else? Its gonna be almost a year since I know him... Somehow, I feel that only time will tell... I just have to be patient...

Malam raye will be spend the way I spend my birthday... At work... But its so gonna be fun... I spent my birthday last year with my poly mates and also 2 years before that... However this year, I spent it at work... Last year fasting was spent training with my batchmates... This year was spent at work... Raye last year was spent at home since I was training only lasted office hours... This year raye will be spent at work... Exciting nyer!!! Hahahahaha... Whcih idiot/moron spends their holidays at work and loves it? Hahahaha...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-08-17T03:21:00.000+08:00

Aku ngah lepak siol... I'm suppose to be sleeping but I'm so not gonna miss my chance to talk to him... Not that special one lahh... Just want to talk to him and lepak... Dah lamer siol aku tak berbual ngan dier... Hehehehe... Aku suker siol berbual ngan dier... Favourite... Woohoo!!!

SuJu is coming early next year!!! Woohoo!!! I'm so gonna go lahh... With my k-pop freak friends... Woohoo!!! I have to apply leave early early sehh... In case I don't get it then I can't go... And that will so suck... And then I have to set aside some money for the tickets as well... Haiz... A lot of expenses ahh...

I so can't wait to go home lahh... Ngantuk giler babi... Takper... A few more hours to go before I can go home!!! Woohoo!!! Tak sabar nyer aku nak balik...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-08-14T19:44:00.000+08:00

Hahahahahaha... Puaser sudah bermula and I'm loving every single minute of it... Woohoo!!! Dah sabar nak beraye kat kejer nanti... Eve of raya will be celebrated at my workplace since I'm working... Woohoo!!! Excited siol aku... Hahahaha... Also, double pay as well... Hahahahaha... Woohoo!!! My colleagues and I planned to blast out the raye songs during the night... Hahahahaha... Macam budak budak siol...

During the national day that just passed, I remembered the time when I celebrated it during secondary school... It was the final year, Secondary 4... And we were all semangat celebrating national day, singing our lungs out and dancing our asses out... Those days... Haiz~~~

I'm not unreasonable... People tell me their reasons and I will look into it... But most of the time, its all excuses to me... The main thing is to be frank and honest with me, that's all I'm asking... Susah ke per... Kalau susah sangat, don't even talk or see me at all... I don't even want to know you lahh sehh... Lu boleh main jauh jauh lahh ehh...

Maybe I'm a freak... Maybe I'm weird... Maybe I'm ugly... Maybe I'm too noisy... Maybe I confuse people easily... Maybe i'm pathetic... Maybe I'm a loser... Maybe I stink... Maybe I talk and walk like a boy... Maybe because of my curly hair... Maybe because of my braces... Maybe because of my panda eyes... Maybe its my complexion... Or maybe, I'm just being me...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-08-09T06:29:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!!! I'm now blogging at work!!! Hahahahaha... Yeah, I know I'm suppose to be working but since I'm free, might as well do it right? Hahahaha... Work is fun... The colleagues are as well... So on the whole, it fine-tastic!!! Hehehehehe...

Bulan ramadhan nak sampai... Lagi beberape hari jer... I love fasting month but not a big fan of Hari Raya... Exciting nyer nak puase... Hehehehe... Yes, baju raye sudah ditempah pun... First time celebrating the fasting month in my workplace... With my colleagues and all...

With every prayer, I pray that Allah s.w.t. akan melembutkan hati orang orang yang telah ku lukai agar mereka will find it in their hearts to forgive me... I never want to have enemies... Ever... But then, I can't please anyone kan... That's it...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-08-02T18:10:00.001+08:00

Hmmm... I wonder what the effing hell is wrong with me... 1st, I've been labeled as nonsensical... Then, being noisy... And now, obsessed... Like, what the hell... I mean am I all of the above? Okay, maybe, I am nonsensical and noisy but obsessed? Now, that's just taking it too far... Do I even look like a stalker? Okay, I am obsessed with all the K-pop thingy but that's about it... Why would I stalk a person just because I like that person? Why the effing hell? I never even follow the person everywhere they go... Buat aper sehh... Bukan dapat duit... If I stalk super junior at least I get to sell their pictures online and make money... Sheesh... Bloody moronic idiot...

Work was and will always be fantastic... I simply adore it... Then, yesterday, one of the new superiors of mine came walking around... I asked him if he's new and he said yes... Hahahaha... I was blushing all the way because his looks are not bad... Cair siol aku... Hehehehehe...

Nope, I'm not rich... I just have slightly more money than I used to have... That's why I can afford a lot more things now...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-07-16T21:04:00.001+08:00

Why cant i have you? Why? Even though you blocked my on FB, i can still find you when i googled your name... Whenever i spot you at work, my heart still skipped a beat and my ears get all hot and my breathing gets shallower... I still cant get over you... I dont know why... My colleague said that it is a possibility that he is married... But we cant be too sure until it is confirmed... While working yesternight, i almost let it all fall... Let it all out... But i'm holding it back... I'm holding it back as hard as i can... Because i know i cant... I cant let it fall... I want you so bad that it hurts... But i cant have you, cant I? I cant run away because i will still have to see you... Even after all that had happened, i still want you... I dont know why...

Work was fun... I love my job... I love my colleagues... I love everything about it although i keep complaining that it sucks... Who doesnt love their jobs when all that is to be done is sit and talk and talk and stone... Hahahahaha.... I loike!!!

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-07-09T21:02:00.001+08:00

Hello!!! I'm back... Yeah, after 3 days in malacca... You can see the pictures on FB... Only 35 pics... I couldnt be bothered to make more pictures... Soak myself in the bathtub since my house doesnt have one and boy was it fun... It was very relaxing... And only did shopping and eating... Hahaha... It was a great 3 days...

Oooohhh... I love my pay this month... It is bloody fantastic lahh... I so cant wait to spent it lahh... OOOOIIIIISSSSSHHHHHIIII Des!!! Hahahahaha... I'm a rich person bebey!!! WOOOOOHHHHOOOOOO!!!!!

I miss my workplace... I miss the work... I miss my colleagues... I miss the atmosphere... I miss everything about it... Yeah, i know... I sound like a workaholic... Nevermind... I'll be back on monday!!! Woohoo!!!

Sometimes, i wonder whats wrong with me... Why dont i have boyfriends or at least, one ex-boyfriend??? All the other girls i know have at least 1 ex-girlfriend... Hmmm... Maybe, i'm just weird... Oh wells...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-07-03T17:10:00.001+08:00

My bottom left hole got infected and now it has string holding the wound that the dental surgeon poke it... Yeah, and its a black string some more... It doesnt hurt though... The wound got infected and there's pus when the surgeon poke it... Now, i have to take antibiotic for 5 days... Man, what a bummer... Yeah, i have to bring it when i go on holiday...

I knew it was a mistake but yet i just got on with it... What the freaking hell is wrong with me? Seriously, what the hell was i thinking? Man, i might have screwed up this time... Sheesh...

But nevermind... I think, i'm back to being me again... The same old me... Bouncing around like nobody's business...

Preparing to go on holiday... I have to make a list of things i wanna bring so that i dont forget anything... So excited lahh... I'll take pictures, of course... But only on FB... Look out for it!!!

"She's so lucky... She's a star... But she cry cry cries in her lonely heart thinking... If there's nothing missing in my life, then why do these tears come at night?"

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-06-25T15:47:00.001+08:00

WOOHOO!!! One more cycle to go before i'm off for holiday!!! And, i'm going with Melly... WOOHOO!!! So the excited... When i go off for one week, i will miss all my colleagues and friends and him and the other one no matter what... Yeah, both of them works in the same place as me... Another colleague of mine knows that i like both of them... You know what i feel like saying to both of them? "Will you marry me?" Hahahahaha... That will never happen... I wish...

Somebody asked me to marry him but i said no... I refused because i know its not time for me to settle down... I'm still confused from all these crap that is happening and i dont things to get even more complicated... I cant even take care of myself much less, someone else... Sheesh...

Finally, i've found someone who is a K-pop freak like me... Well, she's more of it than me so yeah... I love and adore K-pop... They are my life...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-06-17T11:27:00.001+08:00

Hotel Booking is done!!! And confirmed some more... WOOHOO!!! Malacca, here i come!!! I so cant wait to go holiday... I really need it, badly... The last time i went holiday was 2005, like 5 years ago... WOOHOO!!! So excited sehh... Hahahaha... Now, i have to get the transportation done...

So anyways, I GOT SUJU'S 4TH ALBUM!!! Hahahahahaha... Exciting nyer... And there's free poster so i dont know where to put it... I cant put it in my locker... My locker's too small... Nevermind, i'll just put it in my K-corner... Hahahaha... Where i put my k-drama's dvds and posters...

The previous entry, if you happen to read it... I was just directing my anger to that post... No offence to anyone reading it because the guy will never know my blog...

I've deactivated my FB account... You can still follow me on twitter though... Just type 'AdilahMdRosli' and you'll find me...

I hate making enemies... I'd rather not talk to the person than the person not acknowledging my presence... The last time i didnt talk to anyone was secondary school lah sehh... Which is 6 years ago... Enemies is not my strong point... People dont offend me so i shouldnt expect them to not get offended by me... But somehow, he got offended and blocked me on FB and didnt even talk or acknowledge my presence... I wonder what happen... My guess is that somebody he doesnt like told him about me... Great, who was it then?? I cant find that person because he/she will never tell me... But nevermind... All these needs time... So i will sit back and enjoy the show as it moves along...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-06-11T21:48:00.001+08:00

Eh. Lu tak puas boleh berbual per...
Tak yah nak buat kerje bodoh nie...
Aku tahu lah, aku nie gemuk, tak lawa, pendek pulak tu...
Then, tak secerah macam kau...
Pakaian dan perangai macam jantan...
Tapi , perangai kau tu, macam budak secondary school siol...
Tak payah block aku per kat facebook...
Perangai kebudak-budakan sehh...
You are pathetic, you know that?
What kind of guy are you, giving the excuse of blocking a girl just because the girl likes you? Huh?
Seriously, what the hell are you thinking?
Blocking me doesnt make a difference, does it?
We will still be in one place and sooner or later you will face me...
Its not as if the whole place knows of me liking you...
Only the privileged few knows it... And you just have to know it from some of those privileged few...
F**k you, you know that? No one blocks me except me on facebook...

Dah tahu then did nothing about it... Aper nie?
At the very least, ask me casually about it lah...
Then, kau nak aku jadi macam jantan, chase you like one crazy dog, issit?
Oh come on... Nanti orang ingatkan aku desperate pulak...
You cant expect me to do anything about it per... I'm suppose to be a girl, remember?
And girls dont chase guys... Dunia terbalik siol if that happens...

But you know what? If i have the chance to talk to you, i will trash it all out...
But until that time comes, i will sit back and see what will happen and enjoy the show...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-06-09T13:02:00.005+08:00

The newest addition to the family... So cute lahh... My cousin...

Whenever i see someone i know standing there alone, i would approach that person until that person is ready to go off... However, yesterday, he was there alone... I didnt know he was alone until he was there standing alone... Because, he would usually be with at least a group of guys, smoking... I so wanted him to join us but then, i was busy talking to my batchmate that i couldn't be bothered with him... I went off first though... But i still saw him waiting for his bus at the interchange... Because i know how it feels to be waiting by yourself... To be alone, especially...

Whenever i see you, my mind would go blank... I sorta blacked out... But yet, i yearn to be with you even though i dont know why you make something inside of me tick... You dont talk much and you are a rather mysterious person... Yet, i want to know more about you... I know that once i break that hugeass barrier, everything would just fall into place... I know there's already a crack on that barrier so i have to keep hammering it... Slowly and steadily... :-)

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-06-01T13:15:00.001+08:00

I'm tired of all this nonsense... I'm tired of all these craps that's been going on in my head ever since i can remember... I feel like quitting all these crap but thats impossible... Because i'm human... So how? I dont know how sehh... I seriously need help... I'm sick in the mind... Yeah, i'm mentally sick...

HE KNOWS IT!!! F**K LAH!!! Now i dont know what else to do... My colleague just have to tell him... I feel like killing her... Apparently, he just smiled when he knows about it... I think, he knew it already but now he has confirmation... Oh great... Just great... But the more i avoid him, the more i will see him so how... HOW???

I'd better stop being this way or else i would go crazy over the whole place... Oh why couldn't things be more simpler? Why does things have to be more complicated than it already is? When falling for one is not enough, you just have to fall for another and another and another, is it? Why couldn't you just stick to one instead? Sheesh, man...

Choices... You will always have choices... Never say that you have got no choice but to do something against your will... Its up to you to decide what's it gonna be... Because its your life and you have a right to see how it goes...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-05-24T13:30:00.001+08:00

Whenever i read other people's posts on their blog, whether its happy one or a rather sad one, i wish i could do something to make them feel better... But i know i cant... I cant force them to be happy... Its frustrating to know that i cant do anything to make them feel better...

I"VE GOT BRACES!!! Hahahahaha... Like finally... It painful, with all the ulcers and i could hardly sleep at night... Very tiring... And i've got to work some more... And i cant eat proper food... I have to stick to soft diet... I have to go hungry all the time... And i hate being hungry... Now, when ever people talk to me, they will look directly to my mouth... My braces very the sexy... Hahahahaha...

I dreamt about the guy asking me for my number under a void deck... How crappy is that? Sheesh... I wonder what the hell is wrong with me... Okay, maybe because i saw him yesterday at my workplace and he was blocking my way to my pigeonhole... I didnt look at him directly though but i still knew it was him... Yeah, i know... Siow!!!

I was planning to watch a movie but since all the movies are like so damn boring, i decided to just save the money for my vacation in july... And i will have slightly more money than before ever since i put on braces... WOOHOO to more money... :-)

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-05-16T19:36:00.001+08:00

I have 2 less teeth now and in this coming wednesday,i will have 4 tooth less altogether... I am getting braces and the orthodontist said that i have to have 4 tooth extracted to make space so yeah... Its effing painful but thank goodness somebody invented painkillers and anesthetics... But it still hurts lahh... And i have to stick to soft diet... Continue like this and i will be slim... Or i will have to go hungry... Yikes! I hate being hungry...

Why cant people put their ego aside for the ones they love or at least for those around them? I find that frustrating. Sheesh people...

If you look hard enough on your keyboard, you will find his nickname...
If you are observant enough, you will know who am i referring to...

I love my job and there's nothing that is gonna stop me from giving my best. ROCK ON PEOPLE!!!
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-05-08T15:52:00.001+08:00

Hows life? It has been fantastic, as usual...

As i've said before, i give up doing the chasing... I shall stop all that and remain as me... I am tired doing it... If its meant to be, it will be... If its not, then its not...

Everytime i see him, i look away. I wish he would disappear and never exist again. And other times, i feel like strangling him and say, why can't you just disappear...Well, actually, he did disappear for 2 weeks or so... But i dont miss him though... Hmmm... Is that a good thing? I think, it is... I stopped smsing the other one and he didnt sms me back... Oh wells... Not disappointed really... I had anticipated for something like that to happen... So now, i am gonna sit back and enjoy the show... No problem...

I have finished watching the k-drama show and the actors and actresses are so cute lahh... Jang Geun-suk is so cute lahh... So is Jong-hyun from CNBlue... Lee Hong-ki is cute as Jeremy!!! Hahahahaha... Okay, stop... Now, am looking for new dramas to buy and watch... Maybe, i should buy Iris... Got TOP inside... So cute...

So now, i shall rock the house by myself again... No worries!!!

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-04-22T15:10:00.001+08:00

I'm better off sticking my usual loves than finding new ones... Cos i have to do much of the chasing instead of the other way round... So i am gonna take one step at a time... Maybe, just maybe time will tell whether it will work out or not...

Life's been great so far... I love my life right now even though it is a bit screwed up but its great...

When its time to let go, you have to let go... You will suffer if you dont... Dont hang on to things that reminds you of the love you had... Its time to move on... Learn from your mistakes and make the best out of it... But if the opportunity slipped past you one too many times, you might just end up losing everything else as well... Dont just run through life... Take it one step at a time... If you realise you are one step too far, stop and look back and think... Even if you feel like giving up, dont... Just slow down your pace... Even if you cannot tahan already and is hanging on to a really really thin thread, just remember... There's always light at the end of a tunnel... Tomorrow will always be a better day... And trust me, you will feel so much better after that... So people... Never give up... Well, unless you are dead then you cannot do anything about it...

I shall repeat this again... I am not gonna change just for the sake of finding a boyfriend or whatever they call it... I like the way i am right now... And i think most people appreciate the fact that i am just being me... I shall not become lady-like whatsoever... I have been this way for as long as i can remember and i am not willing to change... I want to change because i want to... Not for the sake of other people... I am comfortable with me right now... No one can change that... I know sometimes i complain and lament that boys dont want me but i dont care anymore... Its fun being just me... I know sometimes i behave like a screwed up person but i still love me... If no one else is gonna love me the way i am right now, i might as well love myself even more... If you agree with me, put up your hands people!!!

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-04-14T18:20:00.000+08:00

Everywhere i turn, everywhere i look, i see something... Something that everyone else has except me... Something which i have been tempted to get but am resisting it with all my might... Its everywhere... On tv, on magazines, on brochures, in everyone's hand/bag/pocket... Its everyone's dream phone... Well, almost everyone... I know i'm so not gonna one... Instead, i'm getting a BB... That is, a BlackBerry... Muahahaha... I shall be a BB idiot, not a iphone idiot... BB, HERE I COME!!!

I am doing my best not to spread my crush to the whole of my workplace... Skali, everyone already know but pretended not to know... Oh shit... I will be in deep shit lah seh... Did you remember the guy who i talked about previously? Yeah, somebody who used to be from the same workplace as me and is now at the same workplace as him and we all know each other, put up a message on my FB wall with regards on the birthday wish he left and what i replied. It was embarrassing... Well, not for me but for him actually... I dont want others to know about it... Let's hope no one else read it... Well, if they did read it, they wont know what is it all about...

I want to make my life less complicated. I shall make my life less complicated.

I hate fake people. As in, those who acts differently in front of you and when your back is turned... Oh goodness... That is so the worst kind of people you will ever meet... I hope i will never ever know anyone like that... I know there will be people out there like that so i am expecting myself to meet some or a lot of people like that... As for me, i am not fake... If i like the person, i like the person... If not, you'd better run when you see me...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-04-03T20:03:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to me!!! Yeah, i'm officially 22 today... Spent the first 8 plus hours at work... The rest of the time spent at home sleeping and slacking my ass off... I got a lot of birthday wishes at work from my colleagues... And on FaceBook as well... And through sms as well... I didnt get a single birthday present today but its okay... I dont mind... I'm used to it anyway... Birthday celebration? No such thing. Its okay though. Since birthdays occur every year, every year also the same... Oh wells...

HE WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY ON FACEBOOK!!! OMG! OMG! OMG! I still can't get over it lah... He was so sweet... I missed him badly... I missed bumping him around work... Sometimes i wish he is still here but then, he's off to somewhere better... HE REMEMBERED MY BIRTHDAY!!! I feel so touched... WWWWWAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!! HE REMEMBERED MY BIRTHDAY!!! Hahahahaha... I know i know... But i couldnt help it... HE REMEMBERED MY BIRTHDAY LAH!!! I'm so gonna remember this moment...

As i always say and i will repeat it now... If you are observant enough, you will know what kind of work i'm currently in... If not... Too bad...

Night is finally over... I love it and hate it both at the same time...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-03-29T15:56:00.001+08:00

The issue is finally resolved... I'm glad nothing was there to start with and ended up with nothing as well... Thank goodness... I was cracking my head over what was happening but nothing did happened so that was a relief... Phew...

I think he knows that i am having a crush on him... But then again, i cannot be sure until i asked him personally... But he pretended to not know, I think... I wont be asking him any time soon so lets just see what will happen in future... I saw him a lot of times yesterday... I took the same bus as him heading to work... When i saw his bag jer, i knew it... I knew it was him... Getting off the bus, he went out first... I wanted to walk behind him but i couldnt help it but stare at him so much till he turned... I pretended to not see him and looked somewhere else... I just kept walking on past him... And then, he was doing the same area as me as well so i bumped into him while on toilet break... We only had a brief conversation, nothing much but i moved away from him because the whole place was freaking hot... It was hot everywhere, even inside the counter... I have to take off my jacket and walked around with my jacket in hand... Sheesh... Whats with this weather... I was perspiring like nobody's business when he stepped out of the lift...

I'm tired... I'm tired of being the one who sms you first... The excitement of getting your replies seems to be fading away... My hope of you asking me out is still there though... And i wonder if i will have to wait a year or so just for you to ask me out... I know you know i like you but i guess, its just not enough... I cant give you up just yet... I wonder what will make you ask me out... Do i have to look like other girls? Do i have to behave like other girls? Di i even have to talk like other girls? Oh come on... You should know that i am not like that... I was never like other girls... I do mix with them but i know i am not like them...

Physically, i'm a girl... But i'm a boy in terms of my manner of speech and behaviour... I was like that ever since i could remember...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-03-23T21:14:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna be richer by 557 by midnight tonight... Hehehe... I'm saving it for braces though... At least i got extra money to put into my bank account... Rather than no money at all...

Are you running away from me? Are you trying to avoid me as well? Or is it just my imagination? Why? Wae? Doushite? I can't seem to find you alone... But nevermind... The opportunity will arise and i will talk to you... I will so make you spill everything no matter what... And i will make sure i will get what the hell you are trying to say and work it out one way or another...

Soon enough, the whole of my workplace will know that i am having crushes on the 2 guys... Shit... I'd better stop telling people... But i do so love declaring my crush to people... I guess, in future, if ever i have a boyfriend, i will proudly declare my love for him openly...

Work has been fantastic... I love my current job... Not many people know though... Because i'm not suppose to tell... I've made plenty of colleagues and friends during my 8 months of working... But if you are observant enough, you will know what kind of work i do and the kinds of shit i have to face everyday...

I talked to one of the 2 guys last week... Yeah, one on one... He was busily doing his work and the pc monitor was between him and me and we were talking... I do love talking to him... It was so much fun and time seem to pass very quickly... We were talking about how much i would have gotten for my bonus and who was still awake at that hour... His shoulder felt like mine but his is more meatier... I still love his red Levi's specs... And everytime i see him, his face seems to be red all over... As though he's blushing... Or maybe its just my eyes... I feel as though i can talk to him about anything and everything...

Its just not happening yet, or is it? Maybe i am not realising it yet... Or maybe the signs are all there but i happened not to see it... I dont want it to be too late though... So i'm praying hard that i will be on time for it and grab the opportunity while it still lasts... ROCK ON PEOPLE!!!

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-03-15T22:13:00.001+08:00

I dont know what you mean lahh... I didnt even get what you said just now... Tell me... Is it my imagination or are you joking with me? Serious shit... You said that you will only say that kind of thing only once... But i just want to reconfirm with you again... Tell me lahh... Nevermind... I will talk to you again about it tomorrow... I am so gonna make you say it once more... I still am unsure on what you said... Did you really say that? And what the fuck were you thinking when you called me that? You gave me goosebumps lah sehh...

To all the girls out there... Please do not be jealous at what i am about to say... I will always be surrounded by more guys than girls now than i ever did before in my entire life... That always seem to be the situation nowadays... I myself am at lost at the whole situation... Its like, what the fuck am i doing? Why the hell am i surrounded by guys? I used to be shy and awkward around guys but... Now, i talk and behave like one of them... Great... Just great... Thats why i dont have a boyfriend... Bloody fantastic...

I'm gonna be a bad boy...
I gotta be a bad bad boy...
I'm gonna be a bad bad boy...
I gotta be a bad boy...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-03-05T15:25:00.001+08:00

This song is dedicated to you both... It happened without me realising... I never intended for any of this to happen...

It sucks when you can't get what you want... And it sucks even further when you have to wait long long to get what you want...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

This was all a mistake... I wished i hadn't make that silly mistake... Then, i wouldn't have met you... Then i wouldn't be this way either... I wouldn't be in this sucky situation... Then it would have just be me hoping for the other guy to notice me... Why did they even make me stick with you for 3 whole days? I wouldn't be this way if they make me stick with you for 1 or 2 days tops... But 3 days? Great, just great... I know myself too well...

2010-03-02T20:39:00.003+08:00

When i look toward you, a thought suddenly appears.
Someday, I'll wait until the sky is clear, just as it was on the day you left.
You will quietly return to my side.
The you in my heart. Can you really never see me again?

I'm really such an idiot, you're the only one in my heart.
You, who probably have eyes for someone else.
You probably don't know how i feel.
Your day probably will not include me,not even in your memories.
It's only me, the one watching you, who is silently crying.
Watching the shape of your back is a kind of happiness to me.
Even though, to the very end, you do not understand my heart.

When i want to see you, at times when i really can't bear it.
The words 'i love you' are always lingering on my lips.
I am alone, crying for you.
I am alone, missing for you.
Baby, i love you, I'm waiting for you.

I'm hoping that someday, i might be able to get over you and get on with my life. I want a life of freedom and peace, not a confused piece of meat walking around aimlessly... I want to be able to be me again... Somehow, i might not be able to accomplish it... Whenever you replied my smses, i will smile like there's no tomorrow... So i wonder, what the effing hell is wrong me...

Finally, the night is over... I thought it will never end... But it was fun... Tiring and sleepy and exhaustive but its funtastic!!! I dont know why but its just so much fun...

I'm gonna be a bad boy... I'm gonna be a bad bad boy... I'm gonna be a bad bad boy... I'm gonna be a bad boy... Sorry but i am not gonna pretend to be someone i'm not... I am gonna be me still no matter what. I dont see the need to change... No matter how much i say that i dont like myself, i'd rather be me than pretending to be someone i'm not... And when i say i'm gonna be a bad boy, i really mean a bad boy... Too bad i'm a girl...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-02-22T21:48:00.001+08:00

I am such a sucker... How's life so far? Its been fantastic... Work will always be fantastic, as usual...

Its a good thing not many people knows that i have a blog... Hahahaha... That means... I can crap all i want and no one will know... Hehehehehe... Sounds like a plan? Sounds like a plan...

Sometimes i wish that i dont have to grow up... Its so much easier being a kid than being an adult... All these confusing things going around my head is killing me... I know it will never stop so i might as well deal with it...

I blew 20 bucks just to catch a cab home from sengkang... What the hell am i doing in sengkang? Polymates gathering... It was quite fun though... We were sitting around, doing nothing and crapping... Then, in the cab, the driver kept talking to me lah seh... I was sleepy and tired tapi layankan jer... Kalau tak, nanti macam kurang ajar pulak kan... I slept for 4 hours of the 24 hours on Friday... Record-breaking ke per...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-02-14T21:30:00.001+08:00

Work will always be fantastic, i assure you... Although shitty people will always be around, but its fun... I dont know why but yeah, its totally awesome... I have never said before that my job is fantastic and awesome so... My job is totally awesome and fantastic lah!!! Imagine if you have to be stuck at one place, with your butt in the chair for 5 solid hours... I'll bet your butt will stick to the chair and fuse together... I just did that and the chair seems to be stuck to my butt but i managed to pry it out... Or else, i have to walk around with a chair stuck to my butt...

Doushite kimi wo sukinatte shimatandarou??? I wonder what will ever become of me if i keep all this up... I might just end up at IMH... For treatment purposes... I dont even know what to do with myself sometimes...

All those precious moments are always on my mind... Those small small things that we did together are memories that i hold onto very dearly... Today would be officially 1 month since i know you... I sometimes wish that you are still around but you are already off to somewhere better so its okay... Sometimes when i think of you, it seems to ache somewhere in my chest... Why? Why did it ache as though i need some kind of medicine for it but i dont know what medicine it need? I know i might never have you in my life again but i'm still doing my best to sms you every other day... I'd prefer talking to you face to face and i dont know why... All the previous ones, i'd rather text than talk face to face... But you are different... I wonder why... Why? You are not cute or handsome or hot but why am i feeling this way for you? What the fucking hell is wrong with me? Bloody hell...

Oreos with cold milk is just fantastic... I love it!!!

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-02-06T21:28:00.001+08:00

I may appear shy and innocent, but i'm not...
I may appear arrogant and fierce but i'm not...
I know i'm not pretty and cute but i dont care...
Love knows no boundaries...
When it gets too tough, just know that there will be something good out of it all...
Take pride in whatever you do cos no one else will...
Be willing to give but not take...
When you love someone, love him/her wholeheartedly... Even if you get your heart broken, at the very least you know that you have done your best...
Loving yourself is more important than loving someone else...
Quitting and giving up are two same exact things but not losing it...
If its not meant to be, it will never be...
I'm not perfect but i'm trying my best to be...
Even if you dont get what you want, at least be satisfied with what you have...
When you know you cant take it anymore, stop it all and just walk away...
Whenever you wake up in the morning, be happy knowing that its a brand new day...

I'm getting braces, MacBook, BlackBerry, piano lessons and piano, SS501 concert tickets, an overseas holiday, new jeans, new shirts, new mascara, new bags, new shoes, new LG chocolate... I will get all these for the next few years... I will get it no matter what... I dont care...

I need a break, period... I'm mentally and physically exhausted... I'm tired of running away from all these feelings churning within me because i dont know how or when to handle it all... I know i'm suppose to take my time but i want to get it done and over with... I hate to put it off till the last minute... But for me, most things can be put off till later but not these... Its fucking irritating seh...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-02-01T19:00:00.001+08:00

I wont see him around anymore... I am kinda disappointed that i didnt get to know him earlier... I talked to him yesterday and he didnt seem to mind that i am interested in him... But, i think our schedules are so gonna crash... Its gonna be hard... I hope that i will have the strength to keep this up... I knew i should have given him a hug when we both left the lift... Well, i guess there will be plenty of those in future... ;-)

I dont know why but i keep stoning everywhere... In the bus on the way home, while sitting down, even while watching tv, while waiting for people and so on so forth... I wonder what's happening to me...

The weather was fantastic today... I love this kind of weather... I know its hot and everything but its quite a big change for a person like me who is always in air-con all the time... I will get sick if that happens continuously...

Being here, at this point of time in my life, is effing irritating... Because i'm not used to all this shit... Maybe, i should start getting used to it then...

I like the way i am right now... I dont see the need to change... I know people will say, stop doing this, put more make-up, wear lady-like clothes, walk like a lady and so on so forth... I want to change for the sake of me, not for what others say or think... I love myself too much to care what other people say of me... I heard that if you love yourself enough, others will love you the same way as well... I wonder if its true or not...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-01-24T11:41:00.001+08:00

Being in this situation at this time of my life is confusing... I wonder why didnt i experience all these during my teen years... It seems as though my teens are gone just like that and i am now re-living it again except that i am not a teen anymore...

Is it possible to love someone and then like another one??? Hmmm... I wonder...

Its a weekend and i am at home... No wish to go out at all unless necessary...

How's work have been? Its been sucky, as usual but not the company... The people around were great and that makes it all fantastic... Thats why i look forward to working... He's going off on this 1st feb and i wonder if i will make it when he's not around... He makes everything alright and he makes me smile everytime... I know its been only like 10 days since i know him and then this has to happen... Mepek seh aku nie... I was going to ask for his number yesterday but then i was early so i didnt see him after work to ask for his number... Tomorrow then... Before work so that i can start disturbing him... Kesian dier... Handphone dier very the senyap... Me? I'm always busy... Hehehehe....

The Leo song is stuck to my head... Shitty betul... But the song was damn funny lahh... I was laughing my ass off when i heard the song... Youtube have... FB also have... You should have a listen to it... Hahahahaha...

LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-01-21T20:50:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the 4th year anniversary for my blogger account... Happy Anniversary!!! I was reading through my first post and, boy was it interesting... My first post was so kental... Yeah, i know... Katerkan first year in poly going to 2nd year... Still the mentality of being a kid is still there... Looking back, i've realised how much i've matured through a very short period of 4-5 years...

He was right on front of me when i took the lift this morning... I am waiting for the day when i can talk to him privately and see how everything goes... He look so cool with his cargo shirt... AAARRRGGGHHHH!!! Its frustrating... I wonder if dier sudah berpunyer ataupun sudah ader yang berkenan...

Whenever i'm surrounded by guys, i behave like one of them... But whenever i'm with girls, i behave like a girl as well... I wonder what kind of shit i'm doing... I think thats why no boys wants me as a girlfriend... But nevermind... Just be myself and everything will work out... But i think, i have to be more lady-like and behave like a lady whenever i am surrounded by guys...

I'm doing my best to open up my heart and let nature takes its course...

I keep pushing them out of my life because i dont wish to have anything to do with them... I cant help but falling for them whenever they are nice to me or talk to me like i am one of their buddies... I'm not being fickle though... I want to grab any opportunities that comes my way since they dont come knocking every other day...

You... The other one... You too, came barging into my life... You have a great personality... You may not be handsome as the other one but thats okay... I dont go for looks... I'm so afraid that i might fall for you as well... You are a very easy person to talk to... You make me smile everytime i see you... You are very easy to get along with... I wonder if you have got anyone else...

The guy who took my statement got case... Thats why he wasnt walking around this morning... Padan muker dier... I was laughing my ass off lah sehh... Suckers... But i think he got his ass covered up as well...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-01-16T16:00:00.001+08:00

I was stuck with 2 guys for the last 3 days... Yeah, most girls would dream to be like that... Kat rumah surrounded by guys, pat kejer pun samer... And nope, i wouldnt trade anything in the world for opportunities like that... I'm loving every minute of it... Its fun... I was with the same mentor for 2 straight days... If i were to be stuck with him for the whole month, i might die lah sehh... He's a fun person and all that but i can't be stuck with him for long periods of time...

I saw him for 2 straight days in a row but i didnt see him at all yesterday... I was kinda disappointed actually... Whenever he is near, i would stare at him throughout... If people were observant enough, they would notice it... But people are never observant enough so they miss out a lot... I wonder if he knows i was staring at him... I so wanna tell him that i like him but i can't... I think the awkwardness is holding me back... You know, when you confesses to a guy but the guy rejected your feelings and then when you see him around, you will be very awkward towards each other... Yeah, that kind of situation... But i will never know if i dont do something about it... So, i'm kinda confused about it...

Its a Saturday and i am at home... I dont go out on weekends... There's bound to be a lot of people around... And i hate people anyways so its a great change to stay at home and enjoy my room and my tv... So, guys... If you wanna meet up or anything, please do not hesitate to call or sms me @ 98334740... Enjoy the rest of the off day!!!

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-01-08T14:53:00.002+08:00

I love this song... I know its a great song even though i dont understand a thing... And also it reminds me of you-know-who... Hehehehehe...
Enjoy!!!

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2010-01-05T21:25:00.002+08:00

The year ended with a bang and seemed to already start with a bang... Sounds too good to be true? Yeah, it is... I made a mistake at work and thank goodness that it can be covered up... Or else, i might be sacked for it... But seems that all is well... Back to normal... I was kinda shocked though... But its okay... Its a setback that i will be able to conquer in no time at all... I just have to take my time in dealing with those kinda things...
Now i know why they said that the upstairs politics are even worse than the downstairs ones... Now that i have seen it with my own 2 eyes and ears... Great... But its fun... Shitty people, here i come!!! Woohoo!!!

Now, only 3 people at work knows about my crush... All of them told me to sound him out but i am very shy about it... I dont want to be awkward later on with him... Thats why... Everytime i see him, i feel like running up to him and hugging him real tight and never letting him go... Yeah, i wish...

Eh, when will SuJu and Double-S come to Singapore??? Or maybe at least Malaysia??? I hope to go and see them live in cncert...

This is one song that i am currently listening to... The music video is fantastic lahh... The song is very shiok also... So fun... Can you imagine that all these guys are the same age as me or younger than me? I love their fashion sense... So cool... I am so gonna buy a red straight cut jeans... I've been wanting one ever since i saw Matt from Muse wore one...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-12-23T12:31:00.005+08:00

My life has been very interesting lately... Well, at least for the past 6 months or so... I love my job and the company... I look forward to going work even though it might be tiresome at times... But it's fun... Okay, i said that because i look forward to seeing him every single day... At least catching a glimpse of him is good enough for me... I am pathetic, aren't i?

How's the year have been? I got kicked out of a company the beginning of the year... I actually laughed when my ex-boss told me that i will not be working there anymore... I stayed at home after that for the first 6 months of the year... Got hooked on k-pop and k-dramas till i dreamt about them... Mepek kan... Grew fat and ugly as time passed... Applied for CD medic but never got in because must pass IPPT... My dream of becoming a medic smashed... Kalau tak, boleh jadi doctor... Spent all of my 1k plus savings within 6 months... Tried to slim down by swimming and jogging... Couldnt keep up with that plan now cos too tired and lazy to do so... Applied for a position in the place i am now working in because my mum suggested it... Got in by somewhat a huge miracle and luck... Met and made a huge bunch of friends during training... I changed a lot during training... Became an arrogant bastard... Almost like an ah beng already now... Became more violent than i used to be... Joined the main company and made another huge bunch colleagues... Confused as to whether its love or another passing thingy... Seriously, i wished he would just disappear so that i can continue with my life as per normal... Macam nak cekik cekik batang leher dier and then tell him, how the hell did you make me feel this way... My hair is so much better now ever since i stopped using gel on my hair... Not as dry and like wires as it used to be... My health sucks by the day but have yet to take any MC... I have a lot more money than i used to have so i am saving up... 3 of my cousins got married... I got reconnected with much of my friends through Facebook... Amazing place to be in but at the same time, really scary...

My mum forced me to save up to put braces... It will cost me close to 4.5k plus altogether... Shit... Where the hell am i gonna get all that money... I want to go KL for holiday and buy some stuff so how seh like that... But i can do this... I will do this... GANBATTEI!!! WOOHOO!!!

Oh yeah, before i forget... My aunt just gave birth this month to a baby girl... WOOHOO!!! You can see the pictures on my facebook though... I have a new cousin!!! So exciting!!! My mum is taking real good care of both her sister and the baby so its all good... Imagine seeing a newborn only a few hours old... Tak ke exciting gitu... And and... The best part is... She shares the same
birthday as Shiela!!!

2009-12-12T21:53:00.001+08:00

I saw him for two straight days lah seh... I was like, you again... I cant tell you further since somebody might guess who he is...

I miss Mai and Shiela... You guys are the best in the world... Or wait, YOU GUYS ROCK MY SOCKS OFF!!! Hahahaha... Mai and Shiela, i havent buy your presents yet... I have already decided what to buy for you guys though... I was wondering whether when we will meet up...

I really really really want to let him know that i like him but i just couldnt do it... I dont know why but i just cant... Something is holding me back and i wish i know what it is... My heart almost came out of my mouth when he was standing behind me, waiting for me to finish clearing... I thought it will be some random person but when i turned, i was like, so shocked that my mind went blank there and then... I kept staring at him while clearing... Yeah, and i was drooling my saliva off... He is so cool...

To you... I dont know why, i dont know how, i dont know what... It just happens... I hope that i will be able to get over you as soon as possible so that i can lead my life as normal as possible and pretend that nothing ever happen... But somehow, i wonder if i will ever be able to get over you...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-11-26T21:15:00.001+08:00

Oh why...
Why do i feel so horrible...
Its digging in so deep that i wonder will it ever recover back to normal...
Will i ever be the same again...
Or will i be this way forever...
I hate this feeling...
I hate how this is affecting me, emotionally...
Its pure torture...
I wish this would end as quickly as possible...

We shall see how all these will end... Let's keep on moving forward, one step at a time... I have to take it all in, slowly... Digesting and dissecting it slowly, to see what went wrong...

I have to keep finding it... Even though i feel as though its right under my nose, i still dont know what it is... Or where it is...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-11-21T13:48:00.001+08:00

I am now sitting on a chair with my lappie on my lap and with my feet prop up against the tv console and watching tv all at the same time... I love this... This is heaven...

If you see me running away from a guy, i'm interested in him. If you see me running away from a girl, RUN FOR YOUR LIFE!!!! Seriously... I am not kidding here... Its just a habit of mine since i can remember... I hate it... Cos the guy will never ever know that i like him... Well, except once... With Imran... He knows i like him... I wonder what happen to him... Its been a long time since i talk to him online... Busy busy busy... But now, i have got a new target... Hehehehe...

I would like to say something to Jess... Jess, you shall not and will never reveal who is the person to anyone... If you ever reveal his identity to anyone, i'm gonna kill you with your own Swiss knife... Those who know, knows... Those who dont, dream on about finding out... But there's only 2 person who knows... Jess and my youngest brother... And Jess keeps on teasing me about it... I am so embarrass about it...

I'm going crazy... I have lots of things to do but so little time... I want to save more money, i want to travel, i want to get a degree, i want to buy more stuff, i want to get rid of this crush i am having right now (it drives me crazy whenever i see him around my workplace and it sucks cos i know he will never ever know about it...) and finally i want to have more rest time...

I'd better stop here in case anyone who is observant enough and might guess who the guy is... See you around...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-11-13T16:12:00.000+08:00

I downloaded all 6 episodes of InuYasha... I know, i'm a freak for InuYasha... I was hoping to buy the stickers for it but couldnt find any... I have to keep on looking out for it...

To whom it may concern... I do so want to be close to you but i know i can never do that. I might disappoint you as i have disappointed the person before you. I admire you from afar, knowing that you will never know about it. Hardly anyone knows about it. Just catching a glimpse of you is like tasting forbidden candy, its so tasty yet bitter and unknowingly poisonous. But i keep coming back for more. And you know what? This will pass soon enough so i have to wait for it...

I wonder where is cylinder... We havent seen her since wednesday... Wonder what happened to her... Hmmm...

The weather is perfect for sleeping. But here i am, blogging away like nobody's business. So now, i'm going to switch off my lappie and sleep for a while and watch more tv... WOOHOO!!!!!

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-11-05T16:50:00.001+08:00

I deal with people every single day... Thats why i will never ever let their behaviour affect me in any way... Whats the point of being angry at people when at the end of the day, you will become one of them as well... I cant understand these people... People will be people at the end of the day... And there's plenty of it around... If not, they will not be call people...

I have put SuJu and SS501 stickers on my locker and box... So i get to see them everyday...

I will be on my own from tomorrow onwards... No more mentors to guide me... Man, one month is too short... Honeymoon period is over...

The latest Super Junior M music video and song... This is the Korean version... The original is in Mandarin but i'm not a big fan of it... They are all so cute in the video especially, Hankyung... I love his nerdy style...

I love Sesshoumaru... He is so cool and calm and rarely gets angry... But when he's angry, you shouldn't mess with him... I love him very much... Will you marry me, Sesshoumaru??? I will wait for you forever and ever...

Guess who i saw on an advertisement in the newpaper yesterday? The Aetos guy who trained us... I went, what the hell... The photoshop is obvious and look so fake... Sheesh... And guess what? I know the girlfriend of the guy who works in the same company as my dad and trained us before as well... You know, the guy whom cylinder wanted the MSN but he never give... Yeah, thats the one... If you are still not sure, you can sms me to clarify... She works in the same place as i do... Surprising finds are very easy to get especially if you work in such a small space...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-10-25T20:43:00.006+08:00

I have love-hate relationship with my job... Its contradicting but yet interesting... I love to see how people react to situations... What they will say or do... What their expressions on the faces will say... I click better with weird people cos i know i am weird myself...

And to people out there... I AM NOT HER BFF!!! You shits out there... I know i can click with her better than anyone but that doesnt mean i am her best friend. We talk as per normal like how other people talk... And i am not an 'L' plate either... Word gets around my workplace very the fast... I think, i have to watch whatever i do or say if i want to survive in that particular concrete jungle...

By the way, Melissa, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!! No present, sorry... I rarely get to see you nowadays and we kinda missed your laughter... Hope to see you around as often as possible...

I was vain when i was a kid but now, i dont care much. As long as i look and feel and smell presentable, i'm ready to go... Since i have to keep dealing with people, i have to be that way... Part and parcel of life...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-10-20T17:58:00.000+08:00

I love Sesshoumaru... I wish that he exist in real life... Oh great... He will never be in the first place...
I met up with Shiela and Mai yesterday... We had lunch and sat around for a bit and then i had to go off because of work. We had Pizza Hut for lunch... It was fun and i wished that i had more time with them... They went off to enroll themselves for driving lessons... I dont want to learn driving yet... I feel that its such a waste of money... I'd rather save the money for my travelling plans...

Remember when i had a crush on Imran? Yeah, its the same thing this time... I just needed time to cool it off... But then kan, i dont see Imran that often as much as i see this guy... Oh great... I just have to pray hard that i will not be in the same zone as he is... And, he has the same opinion as me towards having a significant other (that is, if there is, there is. If not, nevermind.). I liked talking to him because he gave me a perception towards things that i have never thought of before. Thats why i like talking to older people. Because they lived longer than i am and they know more about a lot of things.

And people... I have absolutely no intention of having a boyfriend right now. I want to be free. I love my freedom too much to let it go. Yeah, there's plenty of guys out there, even in my workplace, there's plenty of it. But i dont need one right now. I'm happy the way i am right now. I do not need anymore distractions in my life right now. Being crazy and oogling and hot guys is enough. So, if anyone is interested in me (i doubt it...) tell them that if they want to get to know me, please do so. We can be friends but if you want more than that, you have to convinced me even further.

I do so love to talk more but i have got to go. I have a show to catch, clean up my room, iron my clothes and bathe... Bye people. Do not hesitate to call or sms me @ 98334740...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-10-10T10:55:00.001+08:00

You know whats stupid about Facebook? Almost everyone has an account in there. And that scares the shit out of me. Oh great... Why did i even have a Facebook account in the first place... I got itchy fingers... Well, i have to take responsibility for it... What a dickhead i am...

If you knew me last time, i used to be a quiet and reserved kind of person. But now, i have to make conversations and keep on talking even though i might be talking crap. Or else, the atmosphere will be very mendak... And i have always hated awkward situations. Been through it and never want to go to that extent ever again...

Have you seen the new InuYasha episode? It was fun lah... I got to see my beloved Sesshoumaru and he is still as hot and cute as ever... Tears to tiara finish already... I managed to watch all the episodes online or on Animax. Will you marry me, Sesshoumaru?

I think, i have a crush on this guy whom i got to know on Wednesday. I like to talk to him, i dont know why. But he seems a little awkward around me. He's 31 years old and not bad-looking. I shall not describe him further though. Actually, he reminds me of a guy whom i used to know. So thats probably why i have a crush on him. I will get into a lot of trouble if this leaked out. But he is quite strict and not the kind of person who talks crap. But i know my limits. I can observe him from far, nothing more maybe less. I can and will control myself, dont worry. But if you wish to know more, please do not hesitate to call or sms me. I will gladly do justice to it.

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-10-03T14:04:00.000+08:00

I am so gonna hang my dearest SuJu poster on my locker...
I think, i know too many people already... I keep bumping into people whom i thought i will never see again... Singapore is too small already...
Bloody hell... I just got cable and they are not gonna show EPL and the Champions League on Starhub... Fishcake betul... But i got cable because i want to see Animax and ArirangTV and KBS world... So that means, i have to go either MacDonalds or the coffeeshop to watch soccer... I wonder if mum will let me... Then i can hear all the curse and swear words from the ah peks watching the game as well...
Have you heard the new Shakira song? What the hell was she thinking, singing that song? Okay, actually, i respect her for that. Howling like a wolf... There's plenty of she-wolves around, waiting to devour anything and everything that moves... I only devour Korean hunks, not the ones you see laying around ah... Hahahahaha...
I have to postpone my plans to buy Ipod touch next month... I have to keep a bulk of it for travelling plans... And i have to keep some to buy Mai's birthday present. I wonder what to buy her for her birthday present... I was thinking of buying her a Swatch watch that she wanted but maybe some other friends of hers might already have the same plan as me. I have to discuss it with Shiela then... I wonder how are they doing. I hope they are fine. I havent seen them since June this year... Thats about 3 months plus... I miss them like crazy... Guys, when are we meeting up? I miss you so very the much that i want to cry already... Can we meet up as soon as possible?

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-09-25T20:46:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys if i have been boring you for the past entries... No videos, no photos... Nothing except words and more words... Sorry ah... My work and training is purely confidential so if you know, you know. If you dont, you may want to ask me... I am not saying whether i will tell you or not... Hahahaha...

Hows work for the past week? Okay lahh... The test was so easy that i was laughing and smiling throughout the hour lahh sehh... Study so hard for nothing... Come on people... Be accountable for your actions... What, you expect me to say that i did it even though i have always hated to have my hair all over the place... Sheesh man... Bloody hell...
Work was fun today... Thank goodness i didnt take MC today or else i have to retake the whole course again... Then, have to see those people for another 4 days... 2 days is already too much for me, 4 days will be hell already... I wish to kick people's butt everyday... So fun... Now, almost everyone i see, i wish to beat the hell out of them... No offence to those who are reading this and is gonna see me at work also... Lets pray hard that i dont have to see them every again... EVER!!! I mean it!!!!
Last week, kena scolding for punctuality... This week kena for hair and smoke... Fishcake betul nyer budak budak... Tak kene pun kena jugak... Bloody hell...

I am so damn tired lahh... I am falling so hard that i dont know where it hurts... It hurts so bad that i might never know when it will heal...

I bought Teens and Teenage just because it featured Double S-501... I just grabbed it both and bought it without second thoughts... So cute and handsome and pretty and hot... (melts and evaporates into thin air...)
I just got cable!!! Woohoo!!! I can watch InuYasha without disturbing anyone anymore... I am so excited lahh... Cant wait to see my dear dear Sesshoumaru... So cute and pretty...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-09-21T13:43:00.001+08:00

First of all, i would like to wish anyone and everyone Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Halal kan makan dan minum. Kalau ader salah silap, maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki. I love you guys alot. Its just that i dont have the heart to disturb people. I might pass off as an irritating person. I might as well shut up and move on with my life.

Have you ever tried imagining what happens when you kena body search and then have your privates being touched by another man? Imagine that... And then imagine having to watch a guy (if you are a girl) being touched in the privates by another guy. HOLY SHIT!!! I just went through that and i swear to myself that its either i do it or not to watch the whole process. I was like, man, do i really have to watch it? I was putting my hands to my mouth to cover my awe. Its like, an invasion of privacy lah seh... Well, unless the person is a suspect. Did i tell you that when i asked him whether he is married or not, he didnt look me in the eye and said he is married. I knew right then and there that he isn't married. He was always awkward around the ladies and paid more attention to the guys. Most married guys i know are not awkward around ladies. So why did he? What a dickhead. Just say whether yes or no. Difficult meh to say it. If you dont want to say it, say that you dont wanna say it. Sheesh man... So, anyone interested? I could ask my colleague for his number and pass it to you... Hahahahaha....

I'm gonna get a dvd player soon.

I gotta start studying soon. I dont wish to retake exams or papers. Wasting time and effort.

When i embarked on this journey, this new starting point of my life, this new chapter in my life, i thought that i would have matured and be more adult-behaving kinda person. But i realise that some things in life will never change. I am already 21 but my behaviour is still child-like. Okay, not child-like but more like teenagers. I know i have to grow out of it someday but right now, i dont wish to. Or maybe, i dont know how to. I hate it when i see some hot/cute/handsome/pretty guys anywhere, i would giggle and blush and flirt like nobody's business. I would want to attract that guy's attention and pay his attention to me. To keep looking at me and showering me with his attention. To just keep his focus on me. Maybe, it is normal for girls to behave this way but i hate it. I HATE IT BIG TIME!!!

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-09-18T21:20:00.003+08:00

You know whats stupid? I hate the fact that i have a love-hate relationship with everything around me, especially the people... I love and hate it at the same time... So its sometimes very confusing... But i always see it as part of my character and thats what makes me unique... Sometimes i see myself as a crazee person and sometimes a weirdo...

You should have already known this but i will just announce it anyways... Jaebeom is leaving 2PM!!!!!!! I feel very sad and shocked when i heard the news... I went like, WHAT???? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wonder what happened... Hmmm... Probably some random things that was previously said and forgotten and now resurfaced again... I really really really prayed hard that he won't do anything that will ever disappoint the fans....

Sometime i wonder... Why would anyone (actually, any girl) want to tackle a guy that will be there for only four days? Okay, maybe just for the fun of it... But i wouldn't do that, even just for fun. If i know i am going to let the guy into my life for quite sometime, i would probably just toy with him and twirl him around my fingers just for the fun of it. That would be exciting to watch, i assure you. By the way, i am totally not interested in the guy whatsoever. I may talk about him in the posts to come because he is like an innocent little kid lah seh, intruding into the scene like nobody's business and like nothing is going to happen. Whenever break was given, he would be sitting there, eavesdropping on the conversations around him or playing with his phone. I pity him so i asked my guy friend (we sat quite close to him) to talk to him. By the way, i am so jealous of him because he's got excellent and nice teeth. Bright smile even though he is in pain. He already skinny then kena bully by his much stronger and bigger opponent (actually his working partner) until you can see the pain on his face whenever demos is inevitable. I pity him. Imagine seeing him for four straight days. OMG... I was practically dragging my feet around for those four days... I was dead-beat when the last day came around. My whole body was aching like hell and i had to eat 2 panadol just to make my body last for the day. It was the longest 4 days ever in my entire life. Even 9 months working in a stupid company wasnt that long.
To whomever is reading this, if you know, you know. If you dont know, too bad. Hahahaha... Its all confidential. I know i am sadist because i love pain. Really, i do. Maybe its because i see it as a way to release all my anger and stress through pain. But dont worry people. I won't kill myself. I have to much to live for just to end my life like that. That is for stupid people. Oh yeah, i got tattoos all over my hands. If you wanna see them, please do not hesitate to call me out for dinner or coffee or lunch or whatever. I will proudly show them to you.

SuJu is having a concert in Hong Kong right now. I am so jealous lah seh... I so wanna see them live in concert. Its better to have 13 cute guys than chasing after guys that are not worth it. Oh wait, plus Double-S 501 and 2PM and 2Am and DBSK and Sesshoumaru and Hagi and Solomon... OMFG!!! I love them very the much. They are so so so so much better...

I will definitely tell you more when i remember them... So look out for it...
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-09-09T21:09:00.000+08:00

Alamak... Want to blog also very lazy lahh... Very the tired...

Oh oh... Channel V is offering to sent a person and his/her friend to Hong Kong to see SuJu live in concert!!! I so wanna go but i can't... Skali i got the tickets eh... Okay, that will never happen. Just a possibility only... Who wouldn't want to see the world's largest boyband in the world in action??? Okay, you might not share my passion so bear with me... I love all my 13 angels (excluding 5 from Double-S 501, 5 from DBSK, 7 from 2PM and 4 from 2AM...) and so it sums up to 34 angels of my life... So hott...

I can't talk much about my job cos its confidential. Those who know will know. Those who don't, good luck in finding out.

I bought a Japanese-English dictionary. It costs me about 35 bucks but i think, its well worth the money.
For me, my inspirations come with people i see daily, people i see on tv and people who just happen to be there. Don't ask me what kind of inspirations. It just occur to me.

I am so tired nowadays that whatever is served to me, i will just lapped it up. Too tired physically and very sleepy. It seems that coffee doesn't even work on me when i am dead tired. I will still fall asleep.
I'm still thinking what to get for Mai's birthday. I was thinking of getting her a Swatch watch since she wanted one but one costs at least 100 bucks. I have to split the amount with Shiela then. I wonder if she would be okay with it. I haven't ask her yet. Soon ah. Very busy.

Okay, not that i have anything against Girls Generation but i don't like them. I don't know why. Maybe because they all look the same and i can't differentiate them all. I will get all confused. And they also dress similarly. And FT island, what kind of song are they playing? I know its all creativity and stuff like that, their songs also not bad actually. But i just not into that kind of music so no offence to all SNSD and FT Island fans....

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-08-28T21:06:00.003+08:00

Now that i'll be going out of the house frequently, i have been seeing a lot of people's behaviours that sometimes are amazing and most of the time, just being humans. Okay, i'll admit i might have done some of it myself but its funny when you see other peole do the same thing. Weird. And sometimes, i just smiled to myself whenever fellow human beings do those exact same things. Humans will remain humans.

I think, i might be able to go to Double-S 501 concert in December(although it is not confirmed yet) and SuJu's concert in Malaysia. But i have to re-confirm the dates. It seems that SuJu will be performing in Hong Kong on the 18th Sept. Great... It seems that its gonna be a few days just before Hari Raya. Great... But i can't make it either. I've got to learn how to defend myself without anything else besides myself so cannot leave... Bummers...

I seem to have totally forgotten to crap about last week. They cut my Music Bank because the former South Korean president died. Yeah, i know. They were respecting the dead. Just like how Micheal Jackson died and they cut my JK hits. Sucker. And they cut out my variety programmes as well. No chance to laugh my ass off the week.

Watch the below videos. So cute and adorable lahh... Really really... I think, this is the reason why i fell for all of them in the first place. So KAWAII!!!

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-08-23T15:22:00.000+08:00

Oh great... The blogger or my browser something wrong, cannot put videos or pictures anymore. I will try again next time then...

Sorry that i won't be blogging as much as i would. Busy busy busy... I wanted to put this one video of SuJu Happy, Pajama party... Its such a fun video that i wish i was there as well... But Lee Teuk is so cute... I wish he was mine as well as all the other 12 as well... Ultimate cuteness... 2PM and SS501 are also cute as well... And Shinee and 2AM and DBSK! and and and... The list shall go on forever and ever.

I will tell you guys when the time is right what i am currently busy about. Okay, i am busy looking for more Korean hot guys and more hot K-pop music and movies to watch and animes to catch up on and dramas to follow and sleep to catch up on and what to eat when breaking fast.

To Mai and Shiela, i miss you guys very the much. I wish we could meet up someday to break fast together. How was GI Joe? It was very good, right? I am sorry that i didn't meet up with you guys on that day. My feet hurts like hell because of new shoes and i was very tired from walking in the morning as i almost got lost on the way to work. And also, you guys are the only friends i have left. All the rest seemed to disappear in mid-air. Okay? Can can? Msg me or call me whenever you are free so that we can set a date. Okay okay? Thank you very much!!! Kamsahamnida!!! Arigatougonzaimasu!!! So, i will see you when i see you?
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-08-14T14:22:00.006+08:00

These are some of the pictures taken from my facebook page. You can see the rest of it on my facebook page or you can click on the link "MY IDOLS!!!' located on the right side of this page. The above two is Super Junior and the last one is Double-S 501 or SS501. So hot. I can't wait for them to come to Singapore and greet them.

I just finish watching Absolute Boyfriend and it was a great one. The ending was okay but very sad. I wished i have a boyfriend like Tenjo Night. Hot and considerate and so not like the most guys i see around. But what he said is true. Loving someone is painful. I have never fallen in love myself but i know the pain of it. But its very hard not to love someone. Because, afterall, we are humans.

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-08-12T15:50:00.000+08:00

Rain did come to Singapore once. But i am not a big fan of him. Oh wells.

The community club near my house is having Korean language class.But its fucking expensive. It will cost about 130 dollars including material fees. I was like, where the hell am i gonna get the money from. My mum offered to pay for it but i decided that its not the time yet to learn Korean. Its like, last time when i learned conversational Mandarin. I paid 100 bucks for it. Well, actually, mum paid half of it and i used my bursary money to pay for the other half.

I just bought my baju kurung yesterday at Geylang Joo Chiat. It cost dad 145 bucks. I actually liked another one but it cost a whooping 310 bucks. Its both cream-coloured. I want a white baju kurung this year but its all made of lace or same pattern as the one i had last year only its white in colour. Nevermind, i will buy a white one next year. I was thinking of wearing black this year but i don't want to matchy-matchy with mum and dad (will look kinda ridiculous) so i bought cream since all the white ones are not to my tastes.

I am starting work this monday. Kinda excited really. I can't wait to go back to studying and having exams. So fun.
Did i tell you that i am watching absolute boyfriend (zettai kareshi) online? It is so fun. So kawaii!!! Okay gals, who doesn't want a boyfriend who can cook, clean, keeps telling other people that you are his girlfriend, keeps telling the world 'i love you' hundreds of times in a day, doesn't need to eat, hot bod, can charge by itself and do those little things that you wish all your boyfriends would do? Well, except that he's a robot. I so want one.

I do so wish i have my own house where everything belongs to me and no one else. Then, i will be able to do anything i want at any time. Thats why i hate sharing stuff with people. I am not a very people person.
Oh, i have put some more pictures of Super Junior taken using my mobile phone camera from their latest album on Facebook. I tried looking for more of their albums at Popular Westmall but couldn't find anymore. I wonder if the staff there ate it all up or kept it for themselves. Or maybe, there are more SuJu fans out there than i know of.

Before i forget, fasting is dawning upon us very soon and i would like to take this opportunity to wish all those who are gonna fast, good luck and fighting!!! Don't skip fasting ahh...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-08-06T15:17:00.000+08:00

I just finished watching G.I. Joe and boy was it exciting. It was very good and funny. Good laugh there is. You should go watch it if you like humours, hot guys and actions. Lee Byung-hun is so hottt... He is the Korean version of Brad Pitt. His english is not bad. He can almost speak it fluently without the Korean accent. I love those white and black suits, Snake Eyes and Storm Shadow wore. It is so cool that i want to wear white as well. All white outfits. And, Channing Tatum looks more like a man than his step up days. Oh yeah, there seems to be more guys than girls in the theatre just now. I feel like, one of the boys. If you get what i mean...

Its a good thing shaker fries are back. I love it better than the normal fries.

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-08-02T20:30:00.000+08:00

It seems that they are gonna make InuYasha anime, the second part. Woohoo!!! I am so excited lahh... I love InuYasha, okay, especially Sesshoumaru. He is soo cute. I have finished reading the manga and hoped that they will stay true to it. And lets hope that they will simulcast it from Japan, just like how it is for Tears to Tiara. So exciting... Oh oh, Okto played the second InuYasha movie, Castle Beyond The Looking Glass yesterday. I forgot to blog about it. And, and, they are gonna play the third movie, Swords of World Conquest next week. I am so excited lahh... I was kinda shock really, that they are playing InuYasha movies again. I never thought it will happen again, but it did. I was alternating between Okto channel and Channel U. Both are in Dual Sound so its kinds confusing. Yoon Ji-hoo look delicious enough to be eaten. I mean, Yoon Ji-hoo, not Kim Hyun-Joong.

Anyone is welcome to come with me to SS501 concert and SuJu concert. But i can't sponsor lahh. I am not that rich. You can give me a call or drop me an email. Mobile number : +65 98334740. Email : freak_linda@hotmail.com
I haven't got the full details yet but when i do, i will let you know asap.

Seems that SuJu and SS501 members are older than me. Except for Kyu-Hyun who is the same age as me. I don't know why it matters, but it does. 2PM, 2AM, SHINee and 2NE1 have members that are slightly younger than me and they are already so talented. I am kinda jealous. CL of 2NE1 is 19 but she can speak Japanese, Korean, English and French. How multi-lingual is she? Amazing. Me? I can speak a lot of English, basic Malay, a little of Mandarin and Japanese and some Korean. I think, not bad for a non-pretty, non-smart, non-rich and non-talented person.

Triple S's unite!!! E.L.F.'s unite!!! Let's all go forth and support with all our might, our favourite idol groups. Fighting!!!
I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-07-31T15:02:00.000+08:00

Seems like SS501 is coming to Singapore in December. I so can't wait. I am so going to their concert, no matter what. So excited!!! I don't know about SuJu though. Seems like their fan base here is very small, a few hundreds only. I feel so disappointed. But if they were to have a concert in Malaysia, i am so gonna go too. No matter what. I will borrow money if i have to. I will take MC even if i have to.

Sorry guys. I can't seem to be able to put videos and pictures on my blog anymore. But i will put links and stuff like that on my links section of the blog so that you can have access to it anytime. Sorry bout that. What a bummer.

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-07-25T12:32:00.002+08:00

I specially bought Teenage's August issue just because it has the F4 from Boys over Flowers. And also they have the poster of Super Junior too!!! I didn't hesitate and spent my 3 bucks on it. I am not a teenager anymore but i couldn't resist the temptation. They forgot about 2AM and 2PM. They only have SS501, DBSK, Shinee and the WonderGirls. They are getting big in Singapore. I really really pray hard that they will come to Singapore for a showcase or a concert. I will definitely go. Must go one. So now, there's a Super Junior poster just above my lappie. So i can stare at the boys for as long as i can. So cute, that they are definitely irresistable. Long live K-pop and J-pop. And, i only flipped to the page that features the boys. After that, i threw it aside.

So people, please come and join me in welcoming the K-pop stars. Download their songs or even better, buy their albums. I was thinking of buying SuJu album and giving them as presents. Hahahahaha... That will be fun, to see their reactions when they open the present. I wonder whether they will be disappointed or ecstatic. If you don't like SuJu, then how bout DBSK? Or maybe, BoA? Well, thats the only ones i saw on sale at Popular. These cds are much more cheaper than the ones at HMV. But, i don't like Rain so don't talk to me about it. But he's got fabulous hair, i wish i have hair like his. So the jealous. And his bod is hotttt... I have aspirations to have a bod like that. Or maybe, like Jaebum's from 2PM? So hot...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-07-24T15:21:00.003+08:00

Lets all pray hard that Super Junior will come to at least Malaysia. If not, Singapore will be so much better. I so want to see them live.If they are not coming to Singapore, I am planning to fly to Malaysia just to catch their concert. Yeah, i know. Kinda obsessive but i have fallen in love with them quite recently. I even bought their 3rd album lah sehh. I feel so OCB (read; Obsessive Compulsive Behaviour). I hope to see them as good as they were on Music Bank. Too bad i dont like FT Island. Their 'Bad Woman' song is too much for me. No offence to fans of FT Island. And and, they were also planning to bring SS501 to Singapore too. Double OMG!!!! How cool is that? By the way, one of the SS501 members share the same birthday as me. The one that was in the 'Grease' musical in Korea. Name is Park Jung Min. That is so cool lah. And and, Mai shared the same birthday as Lee Donghae from Super Junior. Uber cool lah!!!
I wish that Singapore have at least a Japanese channel just like Arirang TV and KBS World. Then, i could at least see more J-pop.
Well, my only J-pop influence now is anime on Animax.

K-pop is taking over Singapore by storm. Did you read today's The Straits Times? So cool. I was excited lah sehh. Hahahahaha... I know.
So jakun-nist kan. Hahahahahaha.... I immediately went to Life when i saw the frontpage that said something over gaga-ing over K-pop.

Why did i dream of you? Why?Wae? Doushite? Kenape? WHY????? I didnt have a good night sleep because of you. I hate it when i don't have
enough sleep. I tried very hard not to think of you when i woke up this morning, feeling vey sleepy still. That is so sucky. Man, i feel so confused right now. I really hate this. Thats why i never want to fall in love. At least, i try not to. I seem to have a love-hate relationship with the love thingy. You suck, you know that. I am still feeling kinda shaky about it. Man, oh man.

Oh man, i am so gonna go this year's Korea Festival no matter what. Fighting!!! I am so excited lahh... Anybody is welcome to come with me.
Oh, oh. I finished Princess Hours. Its kinda good though. Worth my 20 bucks. But the subtitles still suck. Just like the InuYasha i bought. Both are distributed from Malaysia, thats why. Suckers.

Did you see the newest music video from Girls Generation? OMG. Did you see the dance moves? They seem to be playing chapteh and being
chickens, pecking at the ground , looking for food. I was laughing my ass off when i saw it. Like, what were they thinking? Who the hell came up with the dance choreography? How bout the 'C&C' song? The 'Chapteh & Chicken' song? Sounds good right? Hahahahahahahahaha...

To Mai, the guy that i was talking about is the one wearing black suspenders and singing, starting around at 32 seconds. He will appear again at around 3.29 minutes. So don't worry, he's pretty cute. Besides the fact that you shared the same birthday as Afra. Hahahahaha...

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!! My new loves...

2009-07-19T22:00:00.002+08:00

This is a fun special. Taken off Music Bank special episode. It really was a funny special. You should watch it on YouTube, all of the parts. There was also another special one where 2PM, 2AM, Super Junior and Shinee performed 'Gee'. They were called, Boys Generation. And guess who sang the original song? Its Girls Generation. How ironic is that? Hahaha... And, i was laughing throughout the show. It was so fun. All my favourite artists was there to perform.

Oh, oh. SuJU won another round of Battle of the Pop, Asian edition. This is the second time they won. This time, its for the best dance video. I love their song, their dance moves and of course, the boys!!! I love them all.

2009-07-11T22:30:00.011+08:00

I better stop before my whole lappie will be filled with his picture (read: the above person). So, anyways, the above picture was taken right after the Macau episode. Cool haircut, huh?

And, this was taken during the Macau episode. He had this haircut too even before the Macau episode. I love his hairstyle. I think, it was way better than the one later (which is the top one).

Now guys, tell me. Which of the above is cute? I don't know either. Hahahaha....

The above video is the dance version of the actual video. I don't really like the drama parts of the original video.

And this video is the dance version of the original video. Its fun. You should try dancing it for yourself.

By the way, when i was at the market this morning, i was waiting for my mum and then i heard part of the 'Nobody' song from Wondergirls somewhere. I turned and look towards the direction of the song. I saw this Malay girl with her phone. I'll bet its her message tone cos almost immediately after the song was played, she was busy typing away. I was like, OMG, the song was so last year lahh... Hahaha... No offence to those who have taken offence. Hahahahahahaha........

Fuck shit. I was suppose to watch Boys over Flowers on Channel U but someone else JUST HAVE to disturb my schedule. Fucking hell shit.

This is actually an old song but i recently got addicted to it. Enjoy People!!!

2009-07-08T20:16:00.001+08:00

GUESS WHAT, GUESS WHAT???? I just bought the Super Junior 3rd album, Sorry Sorry!!!! Woohoo!!! My very first Korean music cd. Very exciting!!!! Actually, i already have all the songs but i just have to buy the cd. Its so fun to own a piece of your favourite band. By the way, do you know that Super Junior or SuJu or SJ is the largest boyband in the world? Yeah, cool huh? I havent tried it out yet, maybe later. Oh, i also heard that they might just come down to Singapore for a concert. You know how exciting is that? I will go no matter what. I will buy their most expensive ticket (if there is) and i will take an MC if i got work. SuJu fighting!!!

I am currently very busy trying to finish Princess Hours. Since my lappie cannot play any cd or vcd or dvd, i have to play it on the bigger screen. I should buy the external cd/vcd/dvd player and connect it to my lappie. Maybe, later. I have other things to do with my money for the next 2 years or so.

I joined livejournal for the sake of joining E.L.F Singapore. Its the fanclub for Super Junior in Singapore. LJ also have the fanclub for 2PM and i happily joined it. Can't seem to find the others though. Maybe, i wasn't looking hard enough. Next time, ah, next time.

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-07-04T14:00:00.001+08:00

My Ipod gave me a hell of a fright. It just switched off by itself and then when i tried connecting to my lappie, it doesnt do anything and then my lappie said it is corrupted. My lappie almost crash because of it. But then, i restart my lappie and then reconnect my Ipod and then go to the itunes help and then i did what was written there and presto, my Ipod is alive!!! Hahahaha... Scared the shit out of me. But now, its fine. Back to normal. (Heaved a sigh of relief...)

Tuesday that just went by, i was out with Mai, Shiela and Navas. Navas wanted to meet us since we haven't seen each other for a year, which was last year graduation day. I met Shiela and Navas at Cathay Dhoby Ghaut. Before that, i went into a cd shop that was showing boys over flowers on their screen. I was attracted by that so i went in. I found the Princess Hours dvd selling at 20 bucks!!! Imagine 20 bucks for 6 dvds and i have always wanted to watch the drama!!! I grabbed it immediately and went on browsing for more. I was thinking of getting the dvd where they printed Yun Ji-hoo (Kim Hyung-joon) picture on the front part of the dvd. But then again, i already have all of it in my Ipod so i didn't buy it. Or maybe i shoudl have bought it? Oh wells... I paid for my Princess Hours and boy was i excited. Okay, after that, we went to MacD's while waiting for Mai. I couldn't finish my fries, only my drink and my Mcwings. After Mai came and ate, we went straight to the movie theatre and watched Transformers, Revenge of the Fallen. Quite fun actually, worth my 6 dollars. After that, we went to MadJack's for dinner. I was the one who finally decide to go MadJack's. They keep pushing the blame around on whether to eat at MadJack's or BJ's. What dickheads. After that, Shiela went off and then there was 3. We slacked for a while and then we went off. It was pretty tiring but fun. Guys, we should do that more often.

I have finally got a job. You wouldn't know about it cos you wouldn't know except, well, when you know. Hahahaha... I am excited to earn money. Cos that means, by next year, i can go Korea!!! And then the following year, Japan!!! Woohoo!!! Yeah!!!! Anybody can tag along only if you pay for yourself. Man, i can't wait.

Oh oh. And yes, i got my 200 dollars. I used part of it for the outing and part of it to donate and part of it to mum. All in all, its well used. Except for the fact that i still have 900 bucks in my bank account. So, yeah.
hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-06-29T14:25:00.001+08:00

I seriously have to find a job asap. Sitting at home is enjoyable, yes but no money is coming in. If possible, i want to sit at home and earn money at the same time. But then, i have to be very good at programming and javascript or something like that, then i can earn money. But i am not very good at either one so, let's forget about it then. I wonder if Mai got lobang or not. Mai, if you are reading this, please sms me if you have job openings. Thank you very much. I think right, i am going to be a teacher if i don't find a permanent job soon.

Yes, the holidays are over and now, i can go swimming as and when i want to. There wouldn't be much people at the swimming pool around this time. And, shopping malls are pretty empty. How gerek is that? Can go shopping without worrying about kids running around.

Will somebody please help me find the tv drama leverage episode 13? I want to watch it. Thank you.

And yes, i am now stuck to SuJu songs. But i don't like their previous songs. Love their 'Sorry Sorry' one and 'It's You' also. Their dance step is also very addictive.

Oh, and Shiela. If you are reading this, please update your blog. It is going to be a year since your last update. Thank you.

I seriously think that logging in to msn is such a waste of time because most of the time, i will be the only one online. Okay, that also means that my pool of friends is very small also.

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-06-21T20:25:00.003+08:00

Even though i tell it not to go, even though i tell it to stop.
My heart keeps going towards you.
It doesn't wear out, it doesn't decrease.
Why is my love like this?
One by one, i count and count the memories.
My heart can't rest for even a moment.
It'll just become baggage that is hard to control.
Why can't i even throw them away?

Really, my heart must have done something somehow.
I must have become a fool that's blind from love.
Just one place, every day one place.
Looking at the sad light that is you.
Even the tear glands must be broken.
My tears won't stop.
Just one word, the one phrase that you love.
Can't you just tell me?

Even if i hold out my hands, no matter how much i call out, you're always far from me.
It'll be a love that becomes painful scars.
Why can't i erase it?

Really, my heart must have done something somehow.
I must have become a fool that's blind from love.
Just one place, every day one place.
Looking at the sad light that is you.
Even the tear glands must be broken.
My tears won't stop.
Just one thing, your heart, that one thing.
Can't you just share it with me?
Can't you love me?

Excerpt of another song that can be found on my Ipod. You can ask me what song it is.

You know what's the irritating thing? Channel U is playing My Girl without the english subtitles. I so wanna watch it again but since my korean and mandarin vocabulary is not very extensive, i couldn't understand much of it. Man, that is so depressing. I wish they would put in the english subtitles as well.

I love my new blogskin. Its so fun. I am so excited to see it everytime i switch on my lappie.

Why have my job not come? I need money to save so that i can go Korea next year. I have decided to go Korea first, Japan second and Macau third. After that, i am a happy man. I want to visit Jeju Island and then go watch Music Bank (if i can get in) and try out food (plenty of it).

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-06-19T14:34:00.003+08:00

I am on videos galore today... SO ENJOY!!! 'Itadakimas!!!!' These are the new songs i have in my Ipod and am constantly listening to them.

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-06-17T20:43:00.001+08:00

I watched Attack on the pin-up boys and it was hilarious. Guess who was in it? Super Junior!!!! Hahahahaha... They are my new loves now. I love their 'Sorry Sorry' and 'Its You'. Great songs, both of these. You should listen to these songs. And, they are all Koreans except for one guy, who is chinese. So cute, i mean, the movie. The guys are quite okay except that some of them have gone through plastic surgery just to be more prettier. By prettier, i mean, more handsome lahh... Sheesh... I really hope they will stop by Singapore. I would do anything just to see them live at least once. Or maybe any of the K-wave stars. Yeah. The above was taken off YouTube (duh!) in one of their performances at KBS Music Bank. Their dance moves are awesomest.

Seems like Boys Over Flowers are hitting everywhere in Singapore. I see them in posters and even on magazines. Hahahaha... Let's hope this will keep up and then, we might just get to see them or maybe any of the K-wave stars here. So exciting!!!

I really hope that i will get a job soon. I have been slacking around the house for so long and i am kinda tired of staying at home. So let's hope opportunity will knock on my door soon. Well, technically.

And yes. I have made history. I sort of modified the blogskin i found on blogskins.com and ta-dah! New blogskin within 1 and a half hours. This is the kind of blogskin that i want, simple and not much hassle. And, the space where my entries is is much bigger. I love it to the max. And its only red and black. Very simple. I have made histories. So, then. Enjoy!!!

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-06-11T15:47:00.001+08:00

'Itadakimas!!!'

When i look towards you, a thought suddenly appears.
Some day, i'll wait until the sky is clear, just as it was on the day you left.
You will quietly return to my side, the you in my heart.
Can you really never see me again?

I'm really such an idiot, you're the only one in my heart.
You, who have eyes for someone else, you probably don't know how i feel.
Your day probably does not include me, not even in your memories.
It's only me, the one watching you, who is silently crying.
Watching the shape of your back is a kind of happiness to me.
Even though, to the very end, you do not understand my heart.
When i want to see you, at times when i really can't bear it, the words 'i love you' are always lingering on my lips.
I am alone, crying for you. I am alone, missing for you.
Baby i love you, i'm waiting for you.

Bye bye never say good bye.
Although i cannot grab hold of you, i need you, i cannot say anything, i want you.
Even if it's just wishing and wishing.
When i want to see you, at times when i really can't bear it, the words 'i love you' are always lingering on my lips.
I am alone, missing for you.
In the days when i really miss you, the days when my heart aches, the words 'i miss you' are always lingering on my lips.
I am alone, crying for you. I am alone, missing for you.
Baby i love you, i'm waiting for you.

I watched Blood the last vampire yesterday and boy it was damn good. Her blinking red eyes is not existent in the manga or the anime movie but if you follow the anime, you will know that everytime she fights, her eyes would glow red. I don't think there will be any sequel so let's just leave it as it is.

I have lots of catching up for music bank to watch. Thank goodness youtube have. Cannot wait to see Super Junior, 2AM and 2PM performed. 'Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry...' 'Again and Again and Again and Again...' Love it very much!!!

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-06-02T16:05:00.002+08:00

Life is full of shits. But i always say that if life gives you shits, take those shits and throw it back. Like that, you can become stronger. Right?
Last Saturday, i went to Mai's sister wedding, Kak Ira. It was very good, almost excellent. Not to mention that its not hot since its held in Woodlands CC and its air-conditioned. And the food was very good but i dont like wedding food. Its too heavy for my taste. I was hoping to get some of the wedding cake which is made up of brownies stacked together but it was getting quite late and my ass was aching like mad so i went home. I went with Shiela. Yeah, it was fun. I have 3 weddings to go to after Hari Raya this year. You know how tiring it is or not. Must iron the baju kurung and must hand wash some more. Bloody hell.
OH OH!!! Blood the last vampire is coming out this thursday. So excited. I am so gonna watch it no matter what.
Nie aper nie kahwin kahwin. Merepek sehh. But wait. I will marry Hagi or Solomon or Sesshoumaru or Yoon Ji-hoo anytime.
Nope, its not time yet. I have things i wanna do before anything else and nothing shall stop me... Muahahaha...
I am breaking bank. I have to get a job soon. I mean, real soon. Or else, hell will break loose.
Oh oh. Barcelona won The Champions League!!! Hahahahaha... So, that means, i wont need to buy Manchester United's jersey. Say YES!!!
Even if it's just wishing and wishing.
hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-05-26T13:00:00.003+08:00

The video is the actual video for the original soundtrack. SS501 is actually a 5-member group but one was in the Boys over Flowers drama and the other one was in the Grease musical so they never get to record it together. This song was sung by the other 3 members of the group. There is also another version where only Kim Hyun-Joong sang this song by himself played during the drama. I love his big eyes when his hair is still long like that, not covering his eyes. He looked so much colder when he's hair was covering his eyes. I didnt watch last week's episode. Thank goodness i have it all in my Ipod.

Oh yes. Tomorrow will be the big finale for Champions League. I am so gonna watch it. If Manchester United wins, i have to buy their jersey. If Barcelona wins, i won't have to buy any jersey. So i really hope that Barcelona will win.

Life sucks.
hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-05-19T20:41:00.001+08:00

I have finally finish downloading boys over flowers and am going to convert them to be put into my ipod. So exciting.Then, i can enjoy them anytime and anywhere. Next, i am gonna download my girl. All with original audio and english subs. I tried looking for princess hours but there
was none cos it was licensed or something like that. So that means, i have to find the vcd or dvd with original audio and english subs. That sucks. Big time. Oh yeah,i forgot. Channel U is playing boys over flowers. I am gonna watch it as well. Yeah, i know. You all think i am weird or
something, wanting to watch the same show over and over again. But its fun. Did you catch last week's episode? It was great. You should watch it if you love comedy, handsome boys and cute girls, backstabbing, light-hearted romance and happily-ever-after shits. So, if you are gonna
watch it, dont read my blog cos there might be spoilers. Okay, maybe not cos i wont spoil it for you. Yoon Ji-hoo is someone i could spend my whole life with. But too bad he never existed except for Kim Hyung-Joon who played this character. I think, as the story gets on, the
characters, especially Geum Jan-di, loses her smiles. But in the end, they all got what they wanted although its a bit vague. There is also a special after the last episode but they would not show it on tv. You can look it up online. And, all the episodes are available online as well.Youtube have. If you want to watch it all so badly, go Youtube. By the way, last week's episode is only one and a half instead of 2 episodes. They said they are gonna play 2 episodes but its only one and a half. What a big fat liar. Sheesh.

Oh oh. Did you read the papers on sunday? Nobody by the Wondergirls is a hit song now in Singapore.That song is so last season lah seh. They already released a new song but not as good as the Nobody one. No offence to anyone who is currently hooked onto the same song ah.

My dream now is to earn a lot a lot a lot of money and travel the world and to live comfortably in Singapore. The rest will be put aside till its time to deal with it. But in the meantime, i have to start by getting a job first. Anyone have or know of vacancies? Let me know pronto. I need
the money and the experience. I know i will get through this. I want to take piano lessons and then own a grand piano. I already make a list of the things that i want to buy when i have money. So exciting.

Here are some things i have lost throughout the years. Money, wallet, friends, loved one, memories, mementos, watches and myself sometimes. But i think that most people lost some of these in some point of their lives too. Oh wells.

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-05-12T14:40:00.001+08:00

Now that Boys over Flowers is over, i don't know what to watch anymore. Twice a week dose of anime will never be enough. And soccer will only be on weekends. Once Champions League and Barclays finish, there will be no fun already. Officially now, my favourite channels are as follows with no particular order; 173, 20, 172, 85, 84, 27 and 32. These are the channels only available to those with cable.

Most girls would have chose Gu Jun-pyo over Yun Ji-hoo. Personally, i would have chosen Ji-hoo over Jun-pyo. I like his quietness and when he smiles, he will light up the whole room. All the F4 boys are very childish at the start of the show and all grew up into men at the end of the show. It all started when Geum Jan-di entered the school. Don't forget people. If you wanna watch Boys Over Flowers and also to understand what the fuss is all about, tune in to Channel U at 9.15pm this saturday. I can assure you that it is not a boring show. If you like chic flicks plus a lot of humour and pretty boys, tune in. I never regretted watching it. Its kinda fun. I always look forward to watching what will happen next. But is it really true that love that has been through a lot of hardships will last longer? I will never know the truth.

I have promised myself that if Manchester United wins both Barclays and Champions League, i would have to buy their jersey. I am dreading that. I really really really hope that Barcelona will win the Champions League.

I am just not very good in expressing myself. I just don't know how. Its not a bad thing though.

My aunt is pregnant with her first child. And my mum has offered to look after the baby and my dad said yes since my aunt will probably be working as usual after she gives birth. I don't know what is so exciting about getting pregnant. Imagine lugging around a tiny person in your stomach and feeling like wanting to shit all the time. My mum told me once about how was it like to be pregnant.

Here is another song which i keep repeating on my Ipod.

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-05-08T21:19:00.003+08:00

Did you the match between Chelsea and Barcelona? Or maybe Manchester United and Arsenal? I watched both but i think the more shiok one is the Chelsea and Barcelona one. Iniesta scored at extra time and i was caught off-guard. I was like, he scored already? My stand was that, you shouldn't pin your hopes on penalties or even worst, win because of a controversial goal/penalty. Drogba was furious. He was lashing out at the referee after the match and got a yellow card as well. Then, he lashed out at the camera as well. But it was cut off to prevent vulgarities from broadcasting in Singapore. What was amazing was that Barca was down to 10-men after a challenge on Anelka by Abidal. Amazing right, only 10-men and scored a last-minute goal. The goal was so fast that i didn't realise it was in until the Barca players were pumping their fists into the air. I love Lionel Messi. I was kinda sad when Essien scored the only goal for Chelsea cos then, i woyuldn't be able to see cute Messi anymore. But when Barca got a goal, i was so excited and kinds jolt me from my half-asleep state. I am gonna see the cute Lionel Messi on 27th May 2009 in Rome, Italy. Okay, i will see him on the LCD Tv at home only. No money to go to Rome. He is so cute that he looks good enough to eat. "I'll eat you up ah ah ah aaahhh..." He is very short and i think he is the shortest on the team. If you saw the match, you can see a shorty, jersey 10 person who looks so much like a kid, running around, dribbling the ball. So kawaii!!! I so want to pinch his cheeks. So cute!!!

Channel U is gonna play Boys Over Flowers. I am a little excited cos then, you guys will be able to share my passion. And i have most of the songs (Original Sound Tracks, OSTs) already. Its really good. You might have heard one of it in one of my blog post or you might have seen it on MTV, JK hits. So if you want the songs, give me a call or sms me. You know the number. I think, i might just buy the dvd when it comes out. F4, fighting!!! Or maybe, Geum Jan-di fighting!!! Actually right, you can watch the drama online. Hahaha. Channel U is so last season. Kim Hyun-joong fighting!!! Lee Min-ho fighting!!! Kim Beum fighting!!! Kim Joon fighting!!! Gu Hye-seon fighting!!!

Whats the similarity of these 3? T.F.X.Q , Tohoshinki, T.V.X.Q ? All of them belong to one and same brand. Which is kinda silly cos Channel V and MTV and the original ones are all different. Merepeks sehh.

I wonder when will Animax be playing InuYasha. Cos they are currently playing Samurai X, which is a damn old anime. I really hope they will play it sometime this year. Exciting!!!

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-04-29T13:19:00.002+08:00

Why did Lionel Messi cut off his lovely mane? I am so sad that i cried when i was watching the match this morning(that was an understatement cos before that, i was watching the repeat of boys over flowers and it was so touching.) Oh and, the match ended in a goal-less draw. I guess Chelsea defense was damn good. Chelsea didnt do much attacking and spent more time defending their net while Barcelona ended up with a lot of attacks and a pity that none of it got in. How depressing. I was expecting some actions though. Guess next week's match is a must watch. Mauchester Utd vs Arsenal match. I wonder if i should watch or not. I should because i will feel as though something's missing if i dont watch the match.

I wish i have hair like Lionel Messi before he cut it or Kim Hyun Joong before he cut his hair or maybe Carles Puyol. He has curly hair but nicer curls. I wonder what magic potion he uses on his hair to make it look like that, so neat curls. Maybe he put curlers on before he go to bed. Or worst, he will say he just washes his hair like normal and it ended like that. Its frustrating how these guys does almost nothing but ended up still looking fabulous. I am so jealous.

Boys over flowers is finishing on the 11th May. I am both glad and sad at the same time cos it is finally finishing and i can finally see the ending. Have you seen the advertisement of how this auntie was suppose to be working but instead she was watching Korean dramas on the net? She said, "Oppa, saranghae." That was very funny. Okay, maybe you dont see the funny it in but you should see the advertisement.

Sorry, but i got better things to do. I have better things to think about. I wanna make my life a better one rather than spending my time away over something that is totally not worth it. I wanna be a better person not for other people but for me. I wanna be free to do what i want when i feel like it. Why bother about the other one when you can do it all by yourself? Why get tied down? I'd prefer get tied down by tv or music or my principles or anime or my life rather than the other person. I know you might say, love will change everything. I beg to differ. Love doesnt mean you have to change yourself just to fit in with the other one. Okay, i will not elaborate further so that i wont offend anybody. I love everyone whom i am fortunate enough to meet. So, when i fall in love, i will inform you guys first. And that is gonna happen in i dont know when. Cos right now, i wanna enjoy falling in love with pretty guys all over. Marriage, thats even worse a word. I wish good luck to whomever is getting married or engaged whatsoever. You will need it. Ganbattei!!!

Here is another addictive song that has addictive lyrics and dance moves. ENJOY!!!

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-04-24T16:14:00.002+08:00

I watched the Liverpool Arsenal game and i was falling asleep at the last few minutes. But i opened my eyes just in time to see Arshavin scored in the last few minutes. I didnt expect him to score all 4 goals though. Amazing shit man. Benayoun was kinda scared that Arsenal would score again that he signaled to the referee to blow the final whistle. I was wondering how the hell did Arsenal score 4 goals. I thought that Liverpool's defense is amazing but then again, i was wrong. Hah! What a bunch of idiots. Penuh semangat sing the you will never walk alone song when the match started but they still got a draw in the end. Hahahaha!!!

So now, what else? I am now watching Tears to Tiara and Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood. And its only twice per week. How depressing is that? And i have got nothing else to watch anymore. I am so sad. No more pretty boys to look forward to. By the way, you know the Korean Drama, Boys over Flowers? The F4 is not pretty, but just handsome. But i am now looking for pretty boys or also known as bishounen in Japanese. If both handsome and pretty, I WANT!!!

I want a retail assistant position or job. Anyone has vacancies? Can you recommend me? Thanks a lot. Please give me a call or sms me or email me if you have vacancies or want my resume. Kamsahumnida. Arigatougonzaimasu.
hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-04-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since i blogged about soccer. And since i am currently jobless, i can watch soccer anytime i want. Muahaha. I watched the Champions League and boy was it entertaining. I loved all their powerful strikes and dribbling actions live. If not, basi already what. Now, my favourite team to win the trophy is Barcelona. And, Lionel Messi is my hero. He is so damn good lah. Not to mention that he is cute, not hot but cute. That boyish kind of look. And to all Liverpool fans, you will always walk alone. Hahahaha!!! Funny seh can lose to Chelsea. Chelsea isnt that good but still, they can go on to the semis. That goes to show that Liverpool suck, big time. Hahahahaha... LOSERS!!!! I was kinda hoping that Porto will get into the semis but then again, C. Ronaldo just have to score a goal to get into the semis. What a bummer. I dont like him but he has pretty good skills, i must say. And Arsenal. I dont know what to say about them except that good luck in beating Manchester to get to the finals. And lets hope that Manchester will win the Barclays instead of Liverpool. Liverpool fans are so over lahh. They even have their own song. Its like, eh, really ah? They have their own song? No one else in the Barclays or even the world have their own song. What the hell sehh. So menyampah, you know. Not that i have anything against Liverpool or its fans. Its just merepeks.
hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-04-10T20:35:00.000+08:00

Okay, seriously, i dont know what to say, or type to be exact.
I am still waiting for the new Blood movie to come out.
See the picture below? Thats the present i got from Shiela and Maisarah on my birthday. They gave me a watch, a hair clip, two bracelets and dinner plus dessert. Thanks guys!!! I love you guys very the much!!! And thanks to Mai for the pics.

My cousin's getting engaged tomorrow. I wished her all the best in her future endeavours.
You know whats the most stupidest thing youtube always do? They take down all the animes and movies that was posted up due to copyright shits. Then, i dont have enough time to download all of it or some of it is missing. Irritating sehh. But thank goodness i quickly download all the Blood+ episodes and movie. Now, i want to download or actually watch the newest anime that i am following also cannot. How fucking irritating is that? And you know whats more irritating? All the animes are english dubbed with chinese subs. Fucking hell shit. But thank goodness the new Full Metal Alchemist is japanese and english subs. Thats why i am so excited. Hahaha...
Oh, by the way. I watch animes for the sake of pretty or hot guys. If no hot/pretty guys, i'm not watching. If there is, i will watch it like 2 times for one episode. I am almost certainly and willingly watch all of it. And i will like melt everytime i see the hot/pretty boys.

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-04-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

I have to get a job soon. My savings is dwindling and my parents thinks that i am a burden already. Yeah, i have to do so soon. Any of you have vacancies? I think, i want to work in retail. Flexible working hours is something i certainly want to try out. But staying at home is so fun. I get to watch my favourite animes and movies and music videos.

Oh yeah, Buraddo Purassu (Blood+) finish already. Depressing. No more Hagi and Solomon. I am so the sad. I am still looking out for new ones to watch. Although Okto channel also have animes but its 11 to 12 at night. But its a good thing that its not dubbed. I prefer it with original audio
with english subtitles. I can learn Japanese that way. Oh, i am also learning Korean too. Oh, they are gonna play Full Metal Alchemist : The Brotherhood on Animax. Exciting nyer. Tak sabar aku nak tengok. And, its with Japanese audio and english subs.

I have a question. Why does all the female characters in the anime or drama now gets all the hot guys? I am so jealous. I will die in peace if i ever was being chased by the hottest guys around. Okay, who doesnt want that, right? And why the hell am i so jealous over characters that never
exist in the first place? And, why the hell am i chasing after characters that never exist too in the first place? Yeah, i know. I am weird.

I would like to wish a Happy Birthday to that special someone. That person is turning a year older this year. So, Happy Birthday to you!!! Wish you all the best in your future endeavours and keep having faith in yourself even though you have given up your hopes and dreams.Ganbattei!!!
Sometimes i wish that i have my own place to stay in. I can do whatever i want, come back whenever i want, walk around naked if i wish to, turn the music up loudly, mess up the whole place without any nagging and most important of all, be independent. Too bad i dont have the money to do so. Maybe in the near future i will do that. Oh, and i want to go Japan first of all and then Korea. Everything else, can be put aside first.

And yes, this is the song that is now currently on repeat on my Ipod. Please take the time to appreciate it even though it may seem foreign to you. You can guess where it is from as well. Happy listening and guessing!!!

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-03-21T19:00:00.002+08:00

Loud music does drown out a lot of things, don't they? Its just an observation, really.

I had another complicated dream the other day. I won't tell you about it cause i don't want to be long-winded. Besides,typing out a dream is just not my thing. It seems that all these dreams is telling me something but i still chose to ignore it.I want to be ignorant of it because i feel that its not the right time. Its something that i want but now's not a good time.I am complicated and i do not wish to have additional complications.

What makes you a happier, better person? For me, being alone in an empty place/house. Its so peaceful and you get to do a lot of things by yourself without a care in the world. Its precious time to sit down and think about a lot of things. I have officially at least one song of all the Korean dramas that i have ever watched/followed. I am still compiling though. And, almost all of them have the words,'saranghae'. It gives me goosebumps everytime i hear those words. You can
guess what it means. At least, Japanese ones are hidden between words but Korean ones are so damn obvious.

I read Mai's blog and know that her sister is getiing married. I would like to congratulate Mai's sister (I don't know her name, sorry) on her marriage/wedding and would like to give her my blessings. And Mai, the room will be yours till the day you married. So, look after it. Not like me, my room looks like a warzone.

Now, my Ipod is my bestfriend. Everywhere i go, my Ipod goes with me. Sometimes in the toilet too. But don't worry, i am a hygienic person. I wash my hands before handling my Ipod. I still have about 45 GB left even thought i practically use it as my external hard disk.

You know what my mom asked me the other day? She asked me who will get married first. She predicted that my younger brother will get married first. I said, i don't really wanna know cos i have better things to think about. Seriously, i do. Cos things like these, i leave to fate. Me? I will probably get married in a decade's time or maybe, never. I am seriously afraid of marriage. It scares the shit out of me. Imagine spending the rest of your life with another person and
no one else. Boring giler babi. And adding to that, i don't really care. But life is unpredictable. I just have to wait and see what it has in store for me.
But in the meantime, i shall keep on daydreaming about Hagi, Solomon and Sesshoumaru. I still find it hard to choose who shall be my ultimate choice. Or maybe, i should choose one out of the F4 from boys over flowers. They are pretty cute too, except that they are real people, not anime characters.

They are gonna play FMA the brotherhood next month on Animax!!! Exciting nyer!!! Tak sabar aku dok. And, why does the lead female character gets all the hot guys? I am so jealous of them.

I do really have a lot to say in this post, don't I? Hahaha... I know i know... I am a bit long-winded but it really is up to you to read on. If bored, please do not hesitate to close this browser. Thank you very much. Kamsahamnida. Arigatougonzaimasu.

Oh oh. Blood+ is finishing this coming week. Whatever shall i watch next? No more Hagi and Solomon to fill up my days and nights. Thank you Youtube for giving me the opportunity to watch all the episodes and also, i did download them so that i can keep Hagi and Solomon in my Ipod forever and ever. Oh and also InuYasha. I have their 3rd and 2nd movie in my Ipod. Am still looking for the last movie as they have deleted it off Youtube.
hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-03-12T15:03:00.001+08:00

I am praying really really hard so that i can go into any of the 3 universities that i have applied. I am just not ready to enter into the stupid working world. I dont like it at all. It sucks although you get money for the effort put in. Its all about the money. As i always say, money makes the world go round. Without money, you will be almost nothing.

Oh yeah. My lappie cannot play dvd or vcd anymore. I hit the thing too hard when i was angered. Too bad man, too bad. If repair, cos about 300 plus since my warranty finish already. Fucking expensive. I really should hold back my anger more. I have a bad temper. But since you guys will never see my temper, i dont care.

Ayakashi ayashi finish already. Then what other anime shall i watch? Blood+ is finishing too although there is still about 11 more episodes to go. And i am also watching boys over flowers, a korean drama. Its only available on channel 173 on cable. Too bad for those with no cable. Its very like Meteor Garden if you have heard of it but slightly different. There are only 25 episodes so, very short and its only on Mondays and Tuesdays at 9pm and repeat on Sundays at noon. You have to check for the exact timing of the repeat.

Does having complicated dreams means that i have complicated thoughts and feeling? I was just wondering jer. And i think, i am crazy. And a late bloomer. A weirdo. And a fickle minded person. One minute i like this and the other minute i like the other one. Everyone have crushes on real people, i have crushes on anime characters. But they are very cute, how can i resist it.

By the way, will somebody get me a Macbook for my 21st birthday? Thank you so very the much. Or maybe a huge kiss on my cheek. Hahaha, okay.

Okay, i am off to eat roti prata. Very hungry. And after that, watch more tv. And then, day dream about my 3 musketeers. (Read Sesshoumaru, Hagi and Solomon).

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-03-05T21:05:00.000+08:00

You can lose faith in other people, life and everything else but you must never lose faith in these two, Allah and yourself. Because if you ever lose faith in these two, your life will never be right.
When life and everything else suck, look on the bright side. There are other things in life that will always makes you smile again.

So, did you enjoy the song i posted up earlier? I love it. You can guess where i got that song from. I tried finding the video on youtube but don't have. Sucky sehh.

I kinda miss swimming. Its been a really long time since i went swimming. Swimming is my preferred kind of exercise. Since i was primary school, swimming was always fun for me. I don't know why but it is kinda fun to splash around and you can feel as though you are very light in the water. And, i get suntanned if the day is very sunny. I love it.

I hope that my love for Hagi, Solomon or Sesshoumaru will never run out. I want to fall in love with them every single day. So now, i want to go off and dream about them and melt like molten cheese in the process.
hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-02-25T20:00:00.003+08:00

I know its about time that i change my blogskin but i just havent the time to get around and find one and edit it. I know, what a lazy bum. A lazy, weird and freaky bum.

I am so gonna own a Macbook. I wanna see for myself what makes a Macbook so special so much so that not many people are using it. Not now, maybe later.
I love Hagi, Sesshoumaru and Solomon. I dont know if i should add another one cos this one is kinda special. Okay, maybe not. And, i dont know how to choose between these three. Its very hard. All very kawaii!!!

Oh yes, i am currently expanding my collection of mainly Japanese and Korean songs. So, if you happen to know a few, please do not hesitate to let me know. You can contact me through email(freak_linda@hotmail.com), MSN(freak_linda@hotmail.com), mobile(98334740). Thank you for your time. Arigatougonzaimasu. Kamsahamnida.

What happens when you fall/falling in love? Your heart beats faster, you perspire more, you will think about the other person constantly, everything you do revolves
around that person, you are always in a daze, you seem obsessed with the person, you want to be with the person always, you want to know what are their opinions in
everything, you stare at that person and when that person looks at you, you blush, you blush whenever that person compliments you, you feel as though you are living in a dream, life doesnt seem complete without that person and last but not least, you realise that you are in love. Seems that i have become an expert in this kind of things. Yeah i know, it seems very naive of me to write all these down but they are all true. I observed them through dramas and movies and sometimes, songs. As they say, dramas are the reflections of real life. And yes, i think i am in love. With someone who doesnt even exist and will never be. I am not kidding you.

Oh yes, i bought blue ribbon and i shall try out to have the hairstyle like Hagi. I love his hair as much as i love him and Sesshoumaru and Solomon. If that doesnt suit me, i might try Solomon's hairdo. Short crop, or maybe a mohawk. I do so want to have straight hair. But i guess, i will just make do with whatever i have.
Okay, i am gonna go dream some more about Hagi, Solomon and Sesshoumaru(melts). Before that, i am gonna leave you with the latest song i have in my Ipod and mobile.

Lonely In Gorgeous songs

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hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-02-18T20:15:00.000+08:00

I am excited about a new movie thats coming out. Its called Blood: The Last Vampire. The previous one that came out is an anime but this time, its gonna be the real thing. Lets hope they will put Hagi in. Or maybe Solomon. I will so melt if that happens. If they put both in, i will buy the DVD once it came out. Oh, i also have the anime movie of Blood+. But i think the anime is much better than the movie. Because the anime is more or less complete in its storyline. And, yes, i have finished downloading all the episodes of the anime. It took me about 3 days to download all and two days to convert them and check and put them into my Ipod. Anyone interested may want to watch it on my Ipod. It only has 50 episodes, unlike InuYasha with 167 episodes. And thank goodness that it is all in Japanese with english subs. I so love Hagi and Solomon.
Oh... Do you know that the voice behind Hagi is the same as the voice behind Amidamaru of Shaman King? And also, the voice behind Solomon is the same as the one behind Miroku of InuYasha? And the voice behind Kai is the same person behind Ginta of InuYasha? How cool is that? Same voice but very different characters...

Now, i officially have at least one song of the animes that i have watched. Full Metal Alchemist, Shaman King, InuYasha and Blood+. All Japanese ones. Okay, i also have
InuYasha's background music of the ones that i like. All the ones that sounds nice and interesting i download them all.

I was stoning the other day and i was suddenly reminded of the time when i was doing volunteering with Mai and Shiela and Navas. We were suppose to clean that specific
floor and since there wasnt enough cleaning materials, i was the one who was slacking and sneezing all the way (the place was very dusty and i was very sensitive to dust).
The rest even put that in the presentation of the things we did during class. But i didnt mind, really. It was fun. Fun times are hard to forget. Especially if you enjoyed it. I
wonder how is Maisarah and Roshiela and Navas doing. I hope they are doing very very well.

Oh yeah, i will be getting 400 dollars from the government as well. I think, i will be saving it for going-uni-fund or going-japan-fund. Either way will be so damn beneficial.

I wonder what the hell i am gonna do if i sign in MSN everytime. Because no one wants to talk to me. Okay, i think i am damn boring, thats why.

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-02-13T19:18:00.004+08:00

This I Promise You - Nsync

See the above video? It is one of my favourite love songs. It is the song for Saya and Hagi of blood+ the anime. So sweet. KAWAII!!! I am still finding the love song for Saya and Solomon. On my desktop, the background is Hagi. On my mobile, the wallpaper is Solomon. Everyday melt as the weather is hot also. Okay, now i am gonna go off and melt by myself. Anyone wanna join me?

hAvE a NiCe Day!!!

2009-02-11T13:37:00.005+08:00

(above) Sesshoumaru

(above) Hagi

(above) Solomon

How can you resist these guys, i also dont know... Shall we all melt together then, shall we???
By the way, all three of them are not really humans although they look like humans... You can google them to find out more...
I love all three of them... (goes off to day dream and melts in the process)