in the fires of my heart...


are you an ember or are you a flame?
~david norris~

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Sorry for not blogging for so long... It's just that I have no mood to blog and nothing much to brag about as well... How's the new year so far? It's been as smooth as I hoped it will be so far... No complains... Yet... Oh yeah... I forgot... Happy New Year!!! I know it's late but better late or never...
The past year was a tad different than the year before... I guess, I was just lucky then... I am looking forward to the new year... More challenges to overcome and I may or may not come out victorious but I will move on... No worries...
My mom asked me one weird question just now... Randomly, she asked, you don't have a boyfriend is it? I was like, no and I have better things to do... Like studying again... She didn't pursue the matter any further... And the other day, she told me, kesian anak aku... Sorang sorang dier... Then I gave her my one-eyebrow-up stare and walked off... What's wrong with her anyway? No worries, Mom... I can take care of myself with or without anyone... I don't mind going about my life myself... Hidup sendiri mati sendiri ji... No problem... All I gotta do is pray so that my life will go as I wants it to be... Insyaallah...
Insyaallah, I will be pursuing my further studies this year.. A degree in mathematics... I've been saving as much as I can but not as much as I wanted to... But I manage to save up some so it's still better than nothing...
All I wanna do right now is to be by myself and enjoy the peace I am having after so long... Its as though I never did have peace until recently and I wanna enjoy it as long as I can... I like being by myself... No fuss, no time wasted, nothing... Nothing at all!!!
Do not make me use criticism so that you will buzz off... I already did that and life was peaceful... I never want to do it again because I know I ain't perfect and never will be... I can't ask nicely either because I am and never nice... So just mind your own business... I don't need anymore nonsense than I am already with dealing right now... All I ever hear will be nonsense and nothing else...
Why did I dream of you? You were suddenly in my dream and I don't know why... I missed you but didn't think of you much until the dream... But nevermind... I will live on... No matter what... Life goes on... Oh wells...
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posted at 5:43 PM by Adilah

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